daily life :D

2011-07-23T04:24:00.000-07:00

逃避虽然不是好办法，但已目前情况看来，是生存的唯一方法。

感觉就像是突然之间的清醒，找到了自己所要的，但却落然发现自己现在走的路离梦想好远，发现可能下半辈子都会在为别人而赛跑。

那种感觉的确可怕。唯有在不去想它的情况下，才能说服自己走的真的是对的路，说服自己梦想不必他们的希望重要。

依旧思念谁也无法替代的你。

就像是你每天都在帮助我了解你离去的原因。

我不怪你，也从来不曾埋怨过。

但因为了解，更加痛心。

有了你的指点，我又如何不去在乎和你我一样的那群人呢？

为了你，有了祂，我们一起争取吧。

2011-07-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

너무 힘들어요.. 힝~

포기 또 하고싶어요

今天听了那句话后心莫名其妙地揪了一下。

如果能多听到这样的话就好了。

其实想要知道的也只不过是你是否也理解这一切。

只要能够偶尔告诉我，你也了解其中的辛苦

而别再不把这当作一回事，不把努力看在眼里，别再蒙着眼睛活在自己的世界里，

就算再辛苦，可能这次就真的能找到再继续走的理由。

其实那理由在很久之前就已失去，为何能走到今天完完全全靠的是祂所赐的力量。

的确，感激地心情无法用言语形容。但同时，在往后的日子里，我也希望能够得到你的体谅。

就当是我守护这个秘密的代价吧。

2011-07-03T01:30:00.001-07:00

whooo temporal liberation. how sweet the smell.

love the feeling of not having to worry about anything else while going out/slacking.

why can't it always be like this?

time to catch up on rm/family outing/immortal song 2 ^^

ministry + service today!

had a sudden thought about this after reading the fb updates about b2st's fanmeet.

it's always great and inspiring after such fanmeets/performances/plays, especially when they reflect your own dream so aptly.

yet this often doesn't last for long after different things in life start dragging you down.

so i'm thankful i've someone eternal, that lives outside time, who's the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end to everything.

that it's no longer just a temporary high, but the walk of a lifetime with Him.

surprisingly, though time has passed so quickly and things have moved on ever since, it all comes to a standstill when I know you're there.

never knew how even word, every note could be so intrinsically linked to you.

it still hurts, knowing that even if life could rewind, i probably wouldn't have the chance to save you.

never knew that the sky could embody so much of you. i'm glad you found your peace in the vanilla skies above and i know you're safe in His hands now.

다시 어디서 내가 어디서 받겠습니까
과분했던 그 사랑 이젠 그대 내 곁에 없는데
너무 고마워서라도 미안해서라도 난
그대를 잊을 수가 없겠죠
많이 보고싶겠죠..

2011-06-07T09:40:00.000-07:00

사실은, 나도 가고싶어요.. 잠시만 기다려주세요;

going through a war alongside a comrade, a brother, you survive and he doesn't.

what hurts for most is that they don't see how they lost him, and never realised they could.

yet in fact, knowing how it actually happened from the start to the end makes it even harder to accept or let go.

2011-05-30T23:28:00.001-07:00

reviewing all your past stages, kinda wondered why no one ever appreciated you more.

but all that doesn't matter anymore, anyway.

to think that we were once standing at the same point;

now that you're gone, it feels almost like losing a brother.

though it hurts a lot to know you didn't manage to find a way to escape, i know you're now happier there than you would be if you were still here

행복해주세요..

2011-05-28T09:03:00.000-07:00

well well.. its the holidays but before i come to what i'm gonna do for the upcoming hols, loads of things have happened in the past few weeks..

firstly, 5 tests this week. nearly killed me, no joke. can't remember one night that i slept earlier than 1. in the end, had no choice but to sacrifice studying for one. simply no time. sorry math, think i just flunked you.

secondly, 3 consecutive days where 3 teachers announced their leave. not that we have a very strong teaching group to start with. now all the better ones are gone, leaving the weak ones to struggle. how displeasing. i wonder what'll happen to our reputation.

but anyhow, change is inevitable, just like how man's love for God is seldom consistent. but God's love for man is never-changing and despite all changes that happen with time, i'm glad God's there all the way. It's like He's a common platform and with Him around, you know that in the end there'll still be reunion.

thirdly, i see you've backed down. and for once, there's more relief than regret. glad that i never agreed, cos it'd definitely have been for the wrong reasons.

with all the recent suicides of celebrities and the criticisms popping up, kinda reminds me about how i used to do the same until the whole episode changed my mind. and i've gotta say i understand why they did it, and that it actually isn't as wrong as you think it is..

great time for reunion in fact, with relatives today @ goodwood park. it's been quite a while since we got together and it's timely that we did at the start of my holidays.

unfortunately i sound like a horse now. not too happy about that at all.

finally had the time to watch reruns of variety shows, catch up on practice vids and everything.

sigh eye candy :D
kiseobbie, daniel, wyoung <3

glad gorgor's catching up too.

2011-05-19T09:44:00.000-07:00

this has been bugging me recently, especially after all that's happened.

the right one will come along someday.
the one who knows even when you don't speak, who hears everything you're unable to say, who'll offer comfort hugs for every storm.

yet no matter how I envision it to be, I don't see you in my future.

2011-05-18T09:43:00.000-07:00

reading an amazing book's just like life, a journey through a maze blindfolded.
never knowing the next step, the next turn. it's an arduous yet fulfilling journey, complete with ups and downs.
then just as abruptly as it started, it comes to an end and the blindfold is yanked unceremoniously from your eyes.
stuck in an unfamiliar place, you try looking behind you hoping to find the way back. Yet, what greets you is a whole lot of dead ends and you realise that after travelling for so long, going back to the start isn't an option.
So you look ahead, hoping to find the way forward. Yet, only darkness and uncertainty hoover in the midst. Staying at the same spot, you envision the future, and reminisce about the past. Funny thing is, though possible to see both scenarios work out so perfectly in your mind, you have no idea how you're going to get from where you are now, to where you imagine yourself to be. Stuck at the same spot, you continue walking in circles, trying to convince yourself that it's going to get you somewhere, someday. Yet, when it comes to a point where reality sticks and refuses to be shaken off, like a bad nightmare, when there seems to be no other way, maybe that really is the best option. Who are you to say otherwise? no one has all the right answers. How're you to understand, especially if you've never been through it yourself?

and so how could i possibly accept someone who doesn't?
don't you see, that even if you gave up everything you had, it still wouldn't contain what I've been looking for all this while.
that sometimes, everything isn't quite enough.

2011-05-08T03:51:00.001-07:00

end of the excitement, though another new beginning now.

as relieved as i am about the results, it is coupled with much annoyance.

and im glad to see that quite a few feel the same.

perhaps there's some ray of hope for our generation in the future..

apart from that shit,

ministry+service was awesome.

children were so lovable during ministry. really glad to be able to minister to them (:

and for once i found active children so cute.

service with yaya+ lunch <3

heh blessed start to the week with God's favour overflowing~

can't wait to see what lies ahead.

2011-05-06T07:15:00.001-07:00

addicted to updating. at least for these 2 days.

polling day tomorrow. who will you choose, Singapore?

remember that you're not only voting for yourselves, but also those who aren't able to.

it isn't just about your future, but also everyone else's.

and i have to say i hate to see the way things are going right now.

it scares me to see that people seem to have forgotten.

with such a myopic view on something so broad.

who says above 21 = responsible, rationale, mature?

to me, it's already been proven otherwise.

2011-05-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

就算说过不会再对那样的关系付出真感情，有时还是难免会忘了控制，忘了停止。

但其实说穿了，还是有太多无法捉摸的，太少的宽容，到最后还是说不出的，“就算你不了解也无所谓。”

找寻的是一个能够在黑暗中仍然能够与你注视着同样的目标，

在无语时仍然能够听到你的心声，你的呐喊，

外表上再怎么外向，却在最后发现是个与你一样内向的人，

一个了解就算有再多理由开心却有时还是难免会倾向于黑暗的人。

就当作是我太挑剔了吧，

还是放手吧。

2011-05-05T06:39:00.000-07:00

loooong time since i last updated.

sigh. this week was.. short but eventful?

tuesday was.. long and dreary.

wednesday was.. eventful.

at the end of everything, i was on one hand furious, and on the other, sad. it's too simple a word to truly encapsulate what we all felt after seeing all that yesterday.

2 different households, 2 different stories.

yet both reminding me of people i know.

1 that doesn't try hard enough, the other that only starts trying when it's almost already too late.

1 that refuses to admit mistakes committed, the other realizing only now.

1 that has so much to say, yet so little will. the other with so little left to say, simply because reality has come to stay.

as much as we all want to help you, please show us you're willing to help yourself first.

please show us you want to see that change as much as we want to help you make that change.

we're not asking you to do what you can't. but at least show us you are trying.

cos when we know we're not the only ones that care, it makes everything worthwhile.

can't help wondering if you regret the things you did some point in your life. don't we all?

but for 30 years. it should have been long enough for you to at least look back once.

were you unable to see what laid ahead? or were you simply too lost to care?

now, standing at what seems like the final stretch of your race of life,

we all wonder if you did foresee this. the pain, the burden, the lost.

now, despite all previous pleasure, are you able to still stand firm saying you've never regretted and never will?

will you still able to face your family during your last moments, saying "I'm sorry I won't be there anymore to catch you even if you fall?"

1 an elderly, another a smoker.

1 who hasn't cleaned her house for at least the past 3 years, the other who hasn't stopped smoking in 30 years.

1 that can, but doesn't bother, the other who can't do anything even if he wanted to.

1 with poor sanitation and housing conditions that would take forever to save, the other with 3rd stage lung cancer that even with all the time in the world, would not be easy to save.

2011-04-25T07:07:00.001-07:00

indeed my blog is kinda dead. then again, when wasn't it.

still, here i am to revive it :D

all right, lets see what happened in the last week!

awesome Good friday, spent catching up with an old friend.

haha kinda shocking we've been close friends for almost 11 years already

though things have changed quite a bit but am still thankful we get to meet rather often even now.

now that it's a new journey for her, bet it'll be really interesting.

one of the best Easter sunday in my life heh.

Serving in kids ministry in the morning + resurrection Sunday service right after with friend aforementioned.

kids were so adorable and great to be with. Glad to be able to have made a little difference.

I believe she'll be coming back for more soon.

and the same goes for friend.

God has definitely planted seeds in their heart that'll come to flourish real soon (:

ohhh and was fascinating to see how Narnia bears so much resemblance to the story of Jesus!

another longgg week but yay, lotsa hols to look forward to!

sigh okay update some other time. this thing is hogging my dhsmail access.

i hateeee google being linked.

2011-04-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

recently been having this irresistible itch for travel.

to cities especially, and just hang around the cbd area at night, watching the lights.

it's been a long time since i last did that and it's been constantly bugging me recently.

starting to be really sensitive to scents as well. funny how sometimes in the morning, coffee+aircon+perfume kinda reminds me of the airport in the morning. funny how everything just reminds you of the world you so badly want to hide in, even if it's just for a while. the world where you can finally pick up all the pieces you lost while hurrying about in life.

hate how more than half the walk to school, there aren't any worthy scents to pick up, how when its night and you look out of the window, your heart searches but never finds what it was looking for all along.

it's another of these nights, another futile search. how many more will I have to endure, before the final retreat?

2011-04-03T03:59:00.001-07:00

虽然是晚了点，但是还是得说，戏剧木麻黄真的很棒！

各位辛苦了~

恩，能说在那短短的时间里，找到了我一直在寻觅的那种感觉。

都好多年没去碰戏剧了，这次似乎把我带到了六年前第一次在偶然情况下被拉进戏剧组的场面。

虽然过程辛苦，但是最终得来的成果和感动是难以形容的吧。

很想念戏剧，也很高兴能够再次找回那次演出后的滋味。

谢谢 SH CS，明年还会再去！那时又会有怎样的体会，很期待～

telematch today at marina barrage. was chaotic but still pretty fun and am glad still managed to make it for third service ^^

cute kids kinda make your day. and lianxintian too. great source of amusement ._.

the church is not peripheral to the world,

it's the world that's peripheral to the church.

it's really true and i've seen everything happen before my very eyes.

Thank You for hearing always, thank You for never failing.

my life's yours to take (:

in this coming week, i'll practice Your presence and see You manifest in my life Lord.

can't wait to serve, to make my life encompass more of You and less of me.

glad to see that more people that i never expect would, are getting to know You too.

heartening to see such miracles happen every week especially during the end times.

let's grow the Benjamin generation together.

2011-03-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time..

just discovered a rather shocking news (to me that is). never really expected someone like that to suddenly leave.

though we aren't extremely old friends, it kinda left me thinking.

the choice of school made me think of one that seeped through the cracks, going into a place society would never dare to take a step into.

would i call it envy? at that moment that's what it felt like. that i envied she's going somewhere different, where perhaps, social norms didnt apply as much. that for once, maybe she gets to decide when to strive forward, and when to just stop to admire everything in life. where i felt that God definitely could take an even higher priority.

i hate the fact that as much as i would love to do that, i wouldn't be able to muster up the courage. that in the end, i was still the cowardly being that followed the flow of things. whether that is something that is truly the right thing to do, is yet to be seen.

hate the fact that there exists no equilibrium between money and interest. that its either one or the other. that everyone hopes for the latter. that for my case, interest doesn't equal money and vice versa. that my mum cant accept that.

that for the time being.. im still who the world hopes i can be.

2011-03-13T09:06:00.001-07:00

心情好矛盾。

起初认为你应该不会在乎这些，所以也不该靠太近。

现在又开始在怀疑今天不寻常的例行，原因到底是什么..

powerful prayer for Japan by pastor Lawrence today,

indeed Lord, anoint all rescuers and give them the wisdom and guide them to find all the survivors.

as for the missing, You know where they are Lord, so keep them alive till help arrives.

bring hope for all who's lost their loved ones in this disaster and we all pray that future major earthquakes that will happen this year will be tampered by your grace.

was an awesome service, made me realise that God is mighty to save all that turn towards Him.

glad im a direct product of the Lord and so is pastor Lawrence.

couldn't possibly have been here today if not for the numerous times He stopped me without fail.

now i truly know He's done the same for many others and delivered them from the valley.

alllll right~ shall abandon plans to do csc hw for now. csc talk tomorrow morning ): urgh what about my sleep~

blessed holidays ^^

2011-03-12T06:50:00.000-08:00

end of the world?

shocked to hear about something this massive happening, but what's more an eye-opener is the fact that this large moon phenomena (??) is probably gonna cause even worse damage sometime around saturday next week.

pray for Japan, as well as for everything else that we cannot predict that may happen next saturday.

there's still many unsaved,

I know you won't be coming for us just yet, Lord.

and meanwhile as we look forward to seeing Your face,

we'll continue to get more of your beloveds to look towards You.

When all who were once blind to You can finally see,

this is when I know we'll all see You in Your fullest glory.

we all anticipate, but meanwhile, there's still a lot more to embrace, to welcome, to forgive.

I know we can move the world, so let's keep impacting :)

btw zinc! haha go listen (sacrifice by bob fitts) ^^

kbox with spongebob tmr~ :D

2011-03-10T05:31:00.000-08:00

phew its finally friday tomorrow.

and the end of term1.

and even before i get time to cultivate the elated and relaxed mood i should be getting into,

there's a fat foul pile of homework sitting there contemptuously in my dhs mail.

sigh and even when im typing this now, theres this nagging feeling that's going "HA you should be doing it now, or else you can forget about enjoying your hols".

which reminds me that there's a whole lot of nonsense to spoil my hols such as (starts with a D' ) go figure.

which then brings me to the point that has been loitering around in the corridors of my brain recently.

i always thought dance was defined purely by the movements, the music and the satisfaction derived from doing it, but i guess i'm wrong after all. of equal importance is the people who add a whole new dimension to what dance actually is and the experience you get from it.

and im glad to announce that so far, all i've met with are people who thwart the whole enjoyable experience. it's amazing how many times i can walk back home and come up with a long list of people i feel like giving a tight slap(or maybe more) to for the day. stop, for goodness sake, being so pretentious! :O dont give me eye smiles or scrunch your shoulders to act cute cos that is totally gross. be sincere enough and i wouldn't have been bothered about how annoying you look.

thank God 12's an awesome class, makes school survivable~

enough of that for now, and more of some things im looking forward to.

kbox this sun yeah spongebob? ^^

serving with faith kidz! wheeeeee :D

outcome for SKIP :/

being entertained by mr. vocals~

and some others im not..

-D'

-wtf im supposed to do about D' this sat? still in a dilemma, though its hardly a battle of conscience, the answer is obvious enough.

oh and spongebob, here's the reply to your question (yes good guess, haha.. but as i said, it's nothing much..)

put it at the last line just to see if you really read finish my boring posts.

and now i'll be anticipating your answer..

right, have an blessed friday guys :D

2011-03-05T07:09:00.000-08:00

it's funny how at times due to certain qualities, to quote what matt said, you can't help but stop and wonder, what if i fall in love with him?

it's an interesting game your mind plays with your heart and is even more entertaining that you're an onlooker.

another vacation tomorrow :) looking forward to His word.

show me Your ways, and let me see you manifest in my life,

it's gonna be a long week again and i know that all i'll ever need is You.

2011-03-04T10:48:00.000-08:00

and its.. 15 minutes to 3am.

peaceful for now.

again, the conflicting emotions experienced today made me realise how annoying human's natural instincts are.

as much as we are to place our trust in the Lord for all things including results, human nature makes you unknowingly worry about it when in fact you already have everything.

human nature makes you want to prove yourself more worthy than others, when you in fact are already the child of the most high God.

human nature makes your adrenaline pump when you get your results back just cos you still have that tiny "what if" in your heart, when in fact He has promised all things good.

well the only thing that's keeping me grounded now is His promise that He will be the one doing, and I the one being, such that when success arises, men may not boast in his own works, but only in the Lord alone.

i think my heart found a way to take a vacation last night :)

it was an awesome experience. go watch theatre/ performances.

allow yourself to suspend your disbelief for once, and truly be immersed in that world where you are nothing but the onlooker, not involved in the ongoing affairs but yet equally engaged.

a minute to 3,

where would your heart be?

2011-03-02T06:02:00.000-08:00

thank God it's the middle of the week already.

hanging on..

am annoyed at the poor lessons given for econs, look, dont just babble there, i have no idea what on earth is your main point.

if its not poor pronunciation, then its poor teaching. please do something substantial about it soon.

i hate having to waste my effort listening to you, not get anything at all, and waste time to read it back home again. since you are capable of such good notes, then why doesn't your speech reflect that?!

sigh. even weekends are no escape anymore

show me an alternative way out,

because we all know this routine holds no significant meaning

when what truly matters is how it all comes together to serve others in the future.

2011-02-24T06:31:00.000-08:00

hey whaddya know, its nearing the end of another school week

yes thank God it's friday.

though this week's been awesome, even better than the last, the weekends are greatly welcome.

i'm glad friday's gonna end on a good note.

oh and i just realised this is the first post in a pretty long while, in english.

JXP buddying list is out (: looking forward to 2 weeks of great fun with her^^

heh, am hoping that miracles will happen during the homestay period! egggcited.

all right, there's a whole lot of csc homework on top of csc test next tues. apparently the 2 cute teachers have a sinister plan to not let us have time to study.

oh btw silent reader zinc! haha discovered another brilliant song randomly during free period :D not sure if you've already heard it before but yeah it's my favourite recently hehe ( from the inside out, hillsong united )

right then, have a restful weekend guys! will update when i do find the time..

2011-02-18T03:39:00.000-08:00

好久没骂过人了，

昨天突然有人自愿送上门来给我骂，真爽。

谁叫他啊。是早上，心情又不太好，刚好有个该被骂的人惹火了我。

真是不敢相信世上还有那么多自私自利的人。不被我踢一脚已算幸运。

只有他的时间宝贵哦。真可笑。

终于，是星期五啦。

这一星期能说是比上周疯狂多了。

但很感激这一周温馨的事情也不少 (:

希望在不远的将来，我会有更多选择的余地。什么时候喊停，什么时候冲刺，什么时候，就算不该；放弃。

just wanna let You know, thanks for being such an awesome boyfriend (: all I am is Yours

2011-02-11T03:24:00.000-08:00

今天，又再一次的，哭了好久。

虽然说好那段时间过了以后就不会了，但是这次的事的确考验了我对自己与身边人的承诺。

虽然很欣慰最后的选择是我心里最想要的，但是还是很难潇洒的说放弃了也完全无所谓的那种话。

很感激这一年的开头就已碰到了许多祂派的天使，让我更坚定，更勇敢。

其实，他也是个天使。就算无法参加这次活动，但他对我实力的认可已经是一大鼓励了。

这些天使，就是那群用心看得最清的人。

谢谢你们，让我觉得自己很幸福。

希望在我不知的当儿，也能当上别人的天使，就算不知他们的烦恼，也希望自己能是他们的支柱。

因为收到的爱很多，很想也能为别人付出些什么 (:

2011-02-09T07:35:00.001-08:00

事情如何演变到这种地步老实说我也真的不清楚。

起步时本以为会永远坚持对这活动的执著，但如今却开始动摇了。

问题出在人的身上，并不怪活动，因此很多时候想不理会算了。

但是当每个星期都须因那样的问题苦恼时，总觉得很可惜，自己为何会被一群人所动摇，却又无可奈何。

其实仔细想想看，

可能从一开始到现在，它没有一次是能够包容我这样的个性。

可能一直以为它个能让我自有发挥的地方的我，错了。

可能它一直以来都无法包容最真实的自己。

对，我是那样的人。那又如何。在这善变的世界里，我还是坚持做最真实的自己。

因为我知道还是有那么一群人，在世界懵懂，复杂着的当儿，依然用真心看得最清。

明天吗？不再在乎了。因为它们不值得费心。

以后的打算呢。。还在思考中。

不再彷徨，不会空虚。

I'm secure in Your love, daddy God (:

thank You for Your perfect love,

& today i remember that's it's all for You. everything. so take it Lord, and make the best creation you can ever.

2011-02-04T22:14:00.001-08:00

那么拜年“仪式” 总算告一段落，

而真的如我所说的一样，在那两天里，不去在乎。

虽然今年如往年一样终究一个人守着孤独，但令人意想不到的是其实很多人也都变了。

今年更多人也选择沉默了。

可能是说累了，可能是太多话说不出口，可能，也选择不在乎了。

不管怎样，气氛好多了，也不再别扭。

虽然还是被骂哑巴，但大家不都一样吗？

心里的话太多，一年里的心酸，起伏，怎么说得完呢？

而在大家同时回忆着一年里所做过的一切，终于静下来聆听心里的那把声音时，又有谁会真正的去在乎别人的经历呢？

当个哑巴也没什么坏处啊，至少我知道不管在生命的哪一个阶段，我都仔细聆听过心里的那把声音，

不须等到年底再来后悔自己所没做到的，自己做错的一切。

当能够更透彻的看到自己内心时，才有能力去真正的聆听与关心那些认为哑巴愚蠢，一路来忽略了心里那把声音的可怜人。

2011-02-02T06:16:00.000-08:00

终于，农历新年即将到来。

今年情况会如何呢，还是个未知数。

总记得，每一年都得在某的时候戴上假面具，扮一个不是自己的人，强迫自己在吵杂的气氛中还依然面带笑容。

气氛越热闹，心越寂寞。可能这就是一个不太期待过新年的原因之一。

但我知道这次虽寂寞，却不再空虚。那样我就满足了。

今年，到底会选择戴上怎样的面具呢，又会以什么样的姿态证明自己不会输给他们？

为何每年的新年的用途不只是为了团聚，而也是为了炫耀自己的一些成就呢？

腻了，倦了。今年，不再在乎了。

2011-02-01T07:44:00.000-08:00

maybe i was wrong all along.

just never saw this side of it until You told me.

now that i understand, i'll let go.

i'll be content just looking at others,cos i know i have something greater awaiting.

is it something i didn't do right, or something i should have done that i didn't?

many times i ask myself if i would have done anything differently if it were my close friends and the answer is always a resounding no.

so why then, is it so difficult for this particular group of people to accept the way one is?

2011-01-30T19:37:00.000-08:00

帮助别人，要让他们有尊严地接受帮助，不只给他们鱼、还要给他们钓竿。

　　——台北市长郝龙斌昨天在鸿海尾牙上致词时，肯定鸿海善尽企业的社会责任。

im glad someone agrees :)

2011-01-28T07:30:00.000-08:00

难免会开始问自己怎么能在一个存在那么多不幸人的社会里，还有许多能够坐视不管，能够继续活在自己的世界里。

虽然许多已开始敞开心胸，更愿意伸出援手，但常常听到“他们好可怜”这种字眼令人反感。

在鼓励大众更有奉献精神的同时，我认为也不该忽略对不幸人应持有的正确心态。

需要的并不是别人的怜悯，而是正面的帮助，鼓励，与一双愿意聆听他们故事的双耳。

故事里包含了他们人生最精彩的时刻，也有在最艰辛，凹凸不平的道路上所遇到的挫折。

有谁愿意伴随他们找回在社会的地位，又有谁愿意聆听呢？

2011-01-23T06:49:00.000-08:00

it's a timely reminder.

im sorry i forgot all over again.

it's always like this isn't it. haha sorry to trouble You and thank You, every single step of the way.

thank You for weeping and rejoicing together with me.

we'll do this year together.

floods? with my eyes on You, i know i can walk on water.

my life's Yours, in You i live.

cos it's all for You, all the way till the end of times.

2011-01-21T08:00:00.000-08:00

it's been a really long, but blessed week.

though tired, i think it has been great, especially today.

the most hectic of all days but im really glad i got to catch up and get to know two people even better.

made me reflect on what one can count as a friend.

even though i've always believed that friends should be one that will stand by you loyally no matter what,

today, i've added a new "definition" to the word friends.

perhaps it isn't just about always spending time together, it's definitely also about the quality of conversations.

i can safely say that though we don't meet often, and hardly talk, but when we do during ptm every year, it's always about heartfelt thoughts about the situation in our lives, be it good or bad and the bond we build through one conversation is so much stronger as compared to some others whom i have had over 15 rounds of conversation.

and its just this fundamental difference of willing to speak about your emotions that changes everything.

how do people maintain friendship without ever crossing this line between things at surface value versus emotions.

honestly i do wish to be the type of friend that one would think of first when they have something troubling to share, or if they need someone to confide in.

not that im not interested in being a fun friend but just that to me it means so much more when people are willing to share their feelings with me cos that simply means that they do trust me enough.

lastly, yeah im glad i got to know this person slightly better today.

though it isn't a great step forward, but it still matters cos it is heartening to know that he tries hard enough

that he is passionate enough in what he does

its nice to see a different side to people, out of their daily occupation.

its this side of everyone that makes them ever more humane. its this side of people that makes you want to believe everyone can be good at heart, that everyone faces the same difficulties inspires me to treat everyone better.

Thank You for such a blessed week with the right opportunities, round the clock protection and the little surprises you've arranged along the way. I pray that next week will be even better, and that i will run headfirst into even more amazing things and place me at the right place and the right time (:

it's You who changed me forever and I know You'll impact the world one day.

2011-01-14T06:18:00.000-08:00

short update!

it's kinda hard to summarize what happened over the past 5 days cos so many things did.

orientation was awesome :D

I LOVE YOU BENNU! you guys were the best!

ang gonggong+ hokkien cheer+ aiyaya+ bennu's gonna beat you till you scream like ahhh! = b-e-n-n-u, bennu bennu, own you :D

although i enjoyed almost everything, gotta say today was the best not cos of the partying but cos of inspiring people.

though i always thought it was the choreography that defines dance, i've realised today (after so long) that maybe it's the people who choose to adopt dancing as a lifestyle that defines dance.

it's these people who will make me want to not give up despite everything i have faced/am going to face.

first civics lesson starts next mon, timetable's out too.

though it doesn't end very early, not even anywhere near early most of the time, it's all right, cos it's God's arrangement and i know He'll give me sufficient time to do whatever i need to.

real tired and head hurts. sigh, got more things to do now.

okayzxzx shall update soon! take care people.

2011-01-08T07:08:00.000-08:00

happppy birthday Mr. Sng! We miss you so so much ):

please come back.

man things been springing up on fb within a span on an hour.

hilarious, but true? heh.

now let's just see how long it will take us to get a new "manager" or if it'll have any impact at all.

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=10150119163446844&id=580132279

peeps, go take a look if you haven't already. pretty interesting.

and in lieu of the fact that kz gives you +50% intelligence aura, LFK was created.

good job junior.

i wonder who will get into trouble.

definitely hope no one does, cos you know it's totally true.

2011-01-08T00:56:00.000-08:00

schooool starts... on monday.

how saddening.

trying my hardest to slack my butt off now. thank God orientation is no longer a stayover thing.

shall find Sanghoon oppa for dinner then.

wonder if he's enjoying Malaysia now.

5C12 - BENNNU!

anyone in same house?

leave a tag and tell me your house~

(i know i have silent readers. time to dig you guys out)

vocals&dance.

DW11 audition next week :/

another audition. i feel like i've done tons this holiday.

and 2 more in february.

oh well, i'll give it my best shot.

have fun in school guys :)

2011-01-05T08:35:00.000-08:00

great why does everything have to happen on the same day?!

danceworks audition and school and sanghoon's arrival.

tsk. how could you tell people only at the last minute and expect them to make it.

irresponsible brats. i doubt you ever bother about anyone's feelings anyway. not surprised.

Abba Daddy, i'm trusting you to help me solve this dilemma.

right 10th jan, o levels hmm.

good luck nicole! hope you get into the course you want :D

3 articles of GP to go. tomorrow perhaps, not thinking straight now.

i could type poly as uni. so sorry nic!

thinking of the times even after You forgave me,

I still went out and made the same mistake,

thank you for accepting me again and again

so that i can still be here today.

i may make the same mistake again

but because i know you'll never reject me

that you'll still be the same now and forever,

i promise i'll go out there to accept even more people with a void somewhere in there that others can't see.

2011-01-04T08:13:00.000-08:00

awesome day out with zinc once again ^^

wonder if she burned some fats :/ (animal fats from the pearls to be specific) -.^

anyway, glad to see that h1 math teachers are pretty friendly and i assume, young.

as much as i want to smirk/sneer/snide the junior high section for starting school today, i would also love to strangle/whine/rant at the other IP JCs that aren't starting school till 27th. whywhywhy is ours on 10th! unfair.

im still thankful for the extra one week, get to settle some things i havent got down to doing yet. after the constant odd sleeping times i.e 3am or so, i do hope i can adapt back to sleeping earlier soon. doubt it though. reminds me why i hate waking up before mr. sun does. i believe you guys feel the same.

okay, d'mvmt meeting at 12nn tomorrow in school. will prolly get to see the year 1s and how they're adapting. the younger batches of dunmanians scare me man. reallly witty. lets hope despite all that, they'll still remember to respect seniors >:(

right, GP here i come!

2011-01-02T06:48:00.000-08:00

kinda dislike the fact the dhs mail linked up as a full account with google. now accessing blogger means that i cant read my dhs mail at the same time. annoying >:( all right. shan't multi-task.

2011!!! haha yeah received the word today :D excited about it. today's sermon was pure awesome. learnt so much and yep, it's the year of crowned blessings. can't wait to see it manifest ^^

okay writer's block. creative part of brain not really functioning now. shall update when i do get that part of me back.

have a great week ahead guys :D

2010-12-31T07:20:00.000-08:00

i have exactly 10 mins to do this post before GDA begins.

so a little reflection on 2010 + what is to come in 2011.

2010: one of the toughest years yet if i would say so myself. especially somewhere towards the final quarter of the year when it began to become quite impossible to cope on my own. said this once and i'll say it again, no guarantee it won't return but there is a guarantee that if it does, there's Him to chase it all away. through all that, i've found Jesus and in Him is love and grace and so much more. extremely thankful to be able to survive this trying period and in the process also find a special area of interest for my future career. Wonderful christmas, one of the most meaningful yet. won't ever forget this year, and all the love given by people who truly care. thank you y'all for making 2010 memorable :D year of restful increase, and i know i experienced it, in every area of my life.

2011: what kinda year will it be? i have a confident expectation of good. gonna find out this sun :) no resolutions this year, He'll guide my path. lots of exciting things await, and He'll show me the way. praying to be able to spend more time in the word, fill others with it and spread the love, and do so much more for people who don't know Him yet.

11:30, GDA starting soon and countdown in.. 30 mins :)

have a real blessseeed new year guys!

i think i just said this yesterday. but oh well, im longwinded and you know it!

2010-12-30T05:56:00.000-08:00

although it's kinda late to blog this only now but yes i got my first choice for subj combi :D

praise God :) though i'm not sure how's the class culture gonna be like, after seeing which classes all my sisters-in-christ are going, somehow I know we're in such places for a reason. as zinc says, let's spread some love :D

just watched a pretty inspirational show on telly, channel U's getting better. i'm glad for them. yesterday's shows were good too come to think of it. hope to be able to give back as much as I can to the community when possible.

shocked to hear of violent incidents happening again, especially during Christmas period. kinda weighs on my heart that despite many of us enjoying the festive cheer and celebrating the birth of our Saviour on those days, there were groups of people who were lonely, restless and not flowing with the rest. though there's almost nothing I can do now apart from prayer, I do hope these people get to know the Lord soon in some point of their lives.

indeed, though im not sure of my future career now, looking at the number of options, im glad He's my guiding light. He has greater plans for me (:

newwww year's just around the corner, or maybe even closer than a corner's turn. GDA tomorrow, good job channel U! it would be great if you could show the gayo daejuns next time too, i would be thankful. heard there were exotic hairstyles this year. didn't bother to stream though. got kinda tired of all the buffering and waiting time last year+ poor quality. i'll settle for RMEs that i have yet to watch ^^ they bring laughter all the same.

anyway, happy new year guys! have a blessed one.

can't waittttt for service this sun :DDDD

2010= year of restful increase ( and it definitely came to pass )

2011= ? (to be revealed on sun service ^^)

2010-12-26T06:41:00.000-08:00

today truly felt like the beginning of Christmas.

after all, He's the reason for the season and what's Christmas without feeding on the word of the Lord?

Christmas service was awesome, interesting revelations and definitely, Christmas is so much more than gifts, presents, lightings and trees.

it's remembering Him, who was born to die for all of us, rejected, so that we may be accepted.

no more resolutions, cos im not gonna base it on my willpower. my life is yours to take Lord, make what you want out of it, I'll follow your plans (:

2010-12-25T08:06:00.000-08:00

happy birthday my dearest saviour.

you know you mean the world to me.

thank you for all the love and protection you've given and will continue to give.

my christmas prayer? that more and more people will come to know and accept you as Lord and saviour, and that you will give me the honour to spread the good news of the gospel.

more than anyone else, you know i hope that he accepts you really soon. Make him the chosen one Lord, cos i believe we'll be going to church in a group of three next year.

merry christmas people! 15mins late but i hope you enjoyed yourselves (:

CHRISTMAS SERVICE TOMORROW! can't wait for praise and worshipppppp :D know it's gnna be awesome!

2010-12-23T07:55:00.000-08:00

nearing the festive season and can't help recalling the period of time that was so difficult to endure.

yup, out of that for now, and though i have no idea how long i can stay out, with everything new starting all over again, i'll stay the way i am now for as long as i can.

give me the courage to start this cycle all over again, cos im not sure if i'll have the will to last till the end.

and that's probably the most important new year resolution.

it's probably going to even tougher, but hey, Abba daddy will pull me through even when im not willing, i trust in that.

after all it was He who pulled me out the first two times, and I know he won't ever fail me.

it's the different things in life that shape the path for your future and I'm glad I've experienced this, so that i'll be better equipped to help others.

토니오빠, i know how you felt.

probably the reason why I like him so much now. i'm glad he's out now and happy again.

kinda hurts to know that others go through the same gruelling experience and don't manage to overcome it.

as determined as i am to change that, still, one's feelings matter more to me than the cure.

Merry christmas people and God bless!

eveeeee tomorrow ^^ get to see grandma again :D

2010-12-18T06:52:00.000-08:00

gotta say tony an's my fav. now out of all the old idol groups (: glad he's not that popular anymore.

IU's a charm as well. thank God she's underrated at the moment. may not be such a bad thing.

talking about the upcoming SH orientation simply makes one seeth with rage..

i expected something more mature, after all it's SH now,

and yet i believe it's going to be full of idiotic games where you get each other soiled, screaming and whatnot.

you know what big brained SCs? if that's your idea of fun, guess what? some people just don't feel the same.

so don't force others to play your dumb games. if you're so interested, why don't you just roll in the mud like pigs for a night and have some "fun" and "laughter" by yourselves.

fancy the school making such nonsense compulsory as well.

2010-12-15T07:51:00.000-08:00

quick quick update~

keeping a sleepy 오빠 awake. study period now. poor thing.

d'mvmt tomorrow again. no doubt the choreo is gonna be great just like how the first 2 were.

as much as my heart is unwilling to make this a more positive experience, Lord, you're my Shepard so guide my heart and make tomorrow a good experience. i know You have arrangements in place (:

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it's going to be christmas real soon! can't wait for christmas service and everything i've set out to do. can't wait to see them realize one by one before my eyes cos i trust it will happen ^^

tata!

2010-12-11T07:23:00.001-08:00

sometimes, that awkwardness around people just comes creeping back unknowingly.

and perhaps today was one of those times.

for one of those few (i wouldn't say rare) moments, i could hardly find any element of humour for anything i tried to say. and so as usual i gave up trying.

speech isn't something that comes easily to me (absolutely contrary to some people i know) so forgive the fact that sometimes i really don't have anything to say. it happens even more often to people i'm close to, cos i know you know me well enough to not feel awkward about the fact that we aren't talking as much, so i'm not afraid to let you see more of the real me.

come to think of it, the most tiring thing is trying to keep up with people who just cant seem to survive without a conversation. to sound funny and at the same time babble incessantly requires hell lot of skill. absolutely beyond me if it lasts more than 10 minutes. words that i speak without much thought just to entertain such people often turn out as pure rubbish and i'm rather disgusted at what i churn out as well.

yeah i admit, i think its back again. the worse thing about it, is that though you know you're supposed to reject it, you don't seem to want to. so it just keeps coming back at you harder and harder. i'll be stronger this time i hope.

decided to copy and paste to tumblr as well. random inspiration for a tumblr? well, wonder how long i'll upkeep it.

2010-11-30T06:49:00.000-08:00

d'mvmt day camp has come to an end.

the open classes were truly awesome. learnt so much more than just that genre of dance.

maybe i've finally seen another way out.

and you Jesus, will be the one to see it through.

seen so much these 2 days as well. lots of food for thought.

it takes only one person, a smile, a heart-to-heart talk to make one's day.

thank you Jesus, for allowing me to meet an angel today.

I believe you sent her and i'm really glad i've got her.

i hope that one day, i'll be able to give back double of what i've received today to someone else who needs it even more.

You really have a great way of choosing friends, love meeting someone who's personally felt the transformation in life through You (:

everyone's like an abused kid today, with bruises and whatnot over the knees due to over intense bboy-ing yesterday.

like old ladies/men too, can hardly squat or stand without groaning intensely.

definitely worth it though.

going for some koi tomorrow with sarah perhaps :)

shall update more tomorrow.

2010-11-25T08:18:00.000-08:00

watching happy together now. haha one of my fav singers on now.

library today. extremely elated to see they tripled the borrowing quota ^^

lots of nice new books. would rather read than sleep.

it's amazing to see God's shadow even at the library amongst the mountain of books (:

really heartening to see this during a turbulence: God never promised a calm passage, but a safe landing.

reminds me so much about the lowest point that i hit a while back.

indeed this whole journey has never been easy and honestly i gave up so many times but im so thankful He never did.

if He ever even let go for a while, I wouldn't be ever this whole now.

I know there'll be so many tough times to come but i'm glad we're in this together.

"there won't be a day that I won't catch you when you fall, cos it's us against the world, tonight."

-westlife

i know that's Your promise to me and nights spent in tears occasionally are never as lonely anymore.

2010-11-21T07:17:00.000-08:00

i do wonder if i should feel overjoyed at successfully getting into the cca of my choice or horribly depressed at the type of company im gonna mix with soon. (it's leaning on the depressed side now)

well fortunately justis and jootz know each other. slight sense of security there.

truly feel that dance is best done in a group that starts out as strangers. after all, it's dance that brings people together.

after cj concert yesterday, i would say that maybe the best thing that ever happened wasn't the concert, but the fact that we all started out disliking the fact that the crew would be joining us. yet, at the end of the concert, i think i've made one of the best bunch of friends yet.

yeah brenda and the 2 jiayi-s, i miss you guys already.

to zinc and aileen, thanks for coming to watch! really appreciate that, hope you guys enjoyed yourselves.

something tells me it's going to be a real draining day tomorrow. Jesus, please teach me how to cope with extroverts.

lots of other stuff to fill in the holidays. hoping to get a job soon though.

feeling empty. will seek You more..

2010-11-16T07:58:00.000-08:00

it has been said that though one may suffer in the course of trying so hard to pursue their passion and dreams, it is better to do so than to not have dreams at all.

up till now, i have not come to a conclusion whether this statement is indeed true.

when it hurts so much to try for it, sometimes it makes me feel that maybe, not having this desire in the first place would probably make life slightly better.

but then, when i'm reminded about how one who doesn't have dreams live their life, im thankful all over again that I do have this desire to pursue it.

even if dreams don't come to pass, that skill picked up in order to succeed in the first place stays with you for life. and every time you chance upon that skill or use it, that failure will come back to haunt you.

and yet, living without a purpose, probably isn't leading life the right way at all.

you decide.

2010-11-15T06:03:00.000-08:00

shall gripe/whine a little about the recruitment agencies.

seriously, will replying an email kill you?

why on earth do you have to bug me everyday with unknown number calls and waste my time 哈拉-ing with you on the phone before you can even guarantee me a job!

plus if i happened to miss your call, you don't ever bother to call back or even leave a voice message to tell me who on earth you are.

what great phone etiquette.

and i even heard the most appalling thing when someone cut me off with an abrupt kthxbai. hello, do you think its msn or that we're friends having a casual chat?

urgh. okay enough of that..

moving on,

d'mvmt auditions tomorrow,

looking forward to learning a nice new choreo (i hope).

come to think of it, nic's choreo is pretty good after watching crew2 doing the dry run on stage.

go cj crew (:

-끝

sigh i wish you knew how much i missed you (and still am)

it's been a year already but i haven't forgot you the least bit

it still feels like yesterday when we first spent time together.

you've showed me so much and i'm grateful

and it's like all of a sudden there's this realization that hits you so hard,

you finally see, so this is what my heart's been searching for.

probably, yes it does feel like a dream, and a great one at that too.

love the way it makes you feel all secure and at ease

full of excitement all day long even till the wee hours of the morning.

you have everything that makes you almost perfect

though i went with only one purpose in mind,

you've made me realise that there's so much more to you,

that in fact, i've been too myopic to even think that there's one only thing i can actually experience when i spend time with you.

dear city that never sleeps, till we are able to meet again,

i'll never stop thinking about you.

2010-11-14T07:39:00.000-08:00

whooo full dress was great fun (:

probably more cleaning up soon next week..

the concert is NEXT SATURDAY so please tell me if any of you are interested to come!

as i have said before, it's a KPOP THEMED concert,

going to be A BLAST,

please watch teaser on my FACEBOOK page,

SINGAPORE POLY,

tickets at $16!

7pm- 10 plus i think :/ haha not too sure about the timing.

and to all cj performers, you guys were awesomezxzx :D

cant wait to see y'all enjoying yourselves on stage on sat!

天才冲冲冲has to be one of the best variety shows around. hahaha. a source of humour on sunday nights.

2010-11-13T07:49:00.001-08:00

though it wasn't the best i could do, i'm still grateful You were there all the way (:

may be just passing strangers in life, I'm still thankful I met so many wonderful people today.

full dress at punggol CC tomorrow.

sigh 11plus- 4:30.

well I know it'll still be a fun day tomorrow.

post more tomorrow perhaps :/

2010-11-12T07:27:00.000-08:00

yep out with mummy again today.

haha i think we've gone out together at least 3 times this week ^^

worship ministry auditions tomorrow (:

i know You'll be watching over me.

last call for tickets to a korean themed concert on 20th november at singapore poly!

any one interested?

2 pictures for today..

love you guys loads.

never leave the music scene yeah?

my constant inspiration when there doesn't seem to be a way out (:

one picture for yesterday.

another constant inspiration

and a source of humour

and to wrap it all up,

he's the best (:

post more tomorrow!

2010-11-10T06:38:00.000-08:00

finally, (would i say finally? probably not the right word to use..) O level HCL is over.

yep, crazy writing as usual though the 公函 question was anything but creative.

im positive i wrote something similar to that at least twice and its getting so sickening to keep mentioning the same viewpoint over and over again.

the 作文s on the other hand were pretty interesting.

job interviewww tomorrow.

and yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZINC! (hope you see this)

I LOVE YOU :D (tag if you do)

gonna 约you out for lunch/dinner + koi/gong cha (haha gotta try that weird thing some day).

heh shall visit your workplace sometime soon ^^

full-dress rehearsals on sunday for concert :O

haven't rummaged my wardrobe with a luggage yet.

urgh oh well i'll think of something.

a "mission" i thought of all of a sudden.

shall post random pictures of whoever i think of each day.

happens to be him today.

let's see who it will be tomorrow..

p.s does anyone meddle with foursquare? or am i the only weird one.

2010-11-07T07:37:00.000-08:00

how have you guys been :D

there's a shitass annoying fly thats hoovering in random circles around my laptop. (careful i kill you, fly. )

anyway.. so dance prac was fun as usual, and it's.. about 14 days to the concert! (:

by the way, just a shoutout to anyone who's interested to come and watch a kpop themed concert on 20th november please tell me k!

there'll be kpop dances, songs and stuff. $16/ ticket at Singapore poly :D

o level higher chinese in.. 2 days? good riddance.

though to some others, the holidays have just started, i'm starting to have this odd feeling that it'll be over even before i've had enough.

looking forward to 3 upcoming auditions (:

Lord, I know victory is mine ^^

take care guys! have a blessed week~

2010-11-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

really fascinates me how some people can be so underdeveloped in terms of their thoughts towards certain things.

hypocrisy? ha. ha. perhaps you haven't realised you're probably the only one who's that heartless, who thinks that it's no big deal.

what if you were the one who witnessed the whole incident, what if it was someone close to your heart?

everyone's impacted by the brutality of this incident, shocked at how humanity can be so cruel and there you come along, criticizing others for feeling for him when you're the one who should be criticized for sounding as though he deserved to be hacked!

sometimes i cant help wondering what the world is coming to -.^

2010-11-02T08:31:00.000-07:00

seriously, what the world is coming to scares me lots

imagine our younger generation who is supposedly going to rule the country/ ensure it's progress in the future goes around hacking people just because someone looks at them.

what a society. humans would probably cease to exist.

perhaps the new lesson we should teach kids is: though looking at people is polite while engaging in conversation, but that's in the past already. learn the new rule which is to never bother looking too intently at people lest you find yourself getting chopped/hacked.

just thinking about the word hack is enough to make me puke. you use words like that in the abattoir where pigs get slaughtered for consumption, not on humans.

on the other hand, looking for a job now just like how everyone else is before the pesky O level people obtain freedom and start trying to snatch our "ricebowls". all right, no offence intended.

hehe dedicating this to poor sarah who has to re-download audition. im giving your computer moral support! im sure it can do better than this.. 23 hours? give it a good hard smack to awaken its senses a little (if it has any)

hopefully we'll be able to play a little tomorrow night and I can propose to you if you want heh -.^

a picture i kinda promised ^^

haha guilty indulgence as i mentioned, just looking at him.

finally after 363574573 years, some visual pleasure.

perhaps i should do this more often.

2010-11-01T08:27:00.000-07:00

knew i never favoured the wrong guy,

baby, i'm proud of you for doing that (:

tempted to actually post some pics for the first time in a longgg time.

*contemplates* maybe tomorrow..

indulging in some pictures now.

haha looking at you is pure guilty pleasure :/

you're cute every way i look.

2010-10-31T06:47:00.000-07:00

dance practice for 4+ hours yesterday was pure awesome-ness :D

haha jootz class, i love you guys ^^

looking forward to blocking session next weeeek

going out tomorrowww w/ rah probably after some workshop in school :D

tues, appointment :)

weds, im free :D

thurs, dental+worship ministry meeting :d

friday, chalet :D

yep it's gonna be a fulfilling and blessed week~

hopefully it'll be the same for you guys

please show the CJ crew LOTS of love on OMG!

2010-10-28T01:26:00.000-07:00

maybe it really takes trials and tribulations to somehow just appreciate Him even more.

He's the only one who can ever tell us to find joy in them for He'll work them all out for good.

my future, Lord, is yours.

you decide every step i take, and every time I forget who I live for, remind me gently all over again, just like how you always do.

thank you for opening the worship ministry for recruitment, thank you for listening.

and i'm trusting you for everything else this period of time, where good decision making is so crucial.

lost i may be, but my Lord, my Shepard, i trust you'll guide me.

2010-10-27T08:35:00.001-07:00

yep gpa+subj combi+ cca selections are finally out.

senior high, here we come (:

gotta admit i'm kinda looking forward to it.

finally the freedom of choosing to study subjects i like for once (:

bye sciences, hi humanities + languages :D

promise you guys won't be undermined for the next two years.

in fact you'll be the centre of my life (doesn't it excite you?) heh.

hmm as for CCA, still sticking loyally to CSC -.^

and probably joining D'mvmt w/ rah :D

aww jhynnie got himself a gf ):

but it's all right i'll still love him as much :D

so that makes 2 of my dearest artistes attached, 동욱 and 종현.

1 more left, and Lord, I pray he finds the right girl for him (:

right, that's about it. ought to be submitting option form soon. goodnight!

2010-10-23T08:09:00.000-07:00

sigh that show never fails me make me feel as though i could die crying in that few split seconds all the time.

makes me yearn for that dream all over again.

yeah sure i know i said that i managed to convince myself to give up on that

and for a while i actually thought i succeeded.

probably not, and im not surprised either.

after all i was willing to give almost everything in return for that once.

so that feeling returns once in a while now, teasing and reminding me about how much i want that.

and indeed, i still do.

but that's life on earth isn't it,

people have said life's short, live for yourself cos trying to live for others is too tiring.

but, life's that short and hasn't it ever occurred to you that maybe we were all angels sent down to minister to each other and make the earth a better place?

we only have that little time to try to change someone else's life for the better, and we should, shouldn't we?

we were sent down to care for and love and take care of our own loved ones and that's probably one of the most important things there is.

although having an immense load of wealth or cars or big houses in the future wouldn't half matter to me

i know it would make you happy so yes i would pay this price.

small to you it may seem, but i just hope you know it once meant the world to me.

2010-10-19T08:24:00.000-07:00

yup back.

so just gonna do a quick shoutout to my small group of readers,

im sure you guys have heard of the show OMG on ch5

and a group contender called CJ crew will be performing tomorrow at 8pm

please show your support and love people :D

많이사랑해주세요! (:

can check out the fb page of omg to get to know about them too

crew1! , 화이팅!

know they're gonna do great (:

2010-10-18T06:51:00.000-07:00

back~

yep pretty plain lineup of post exam activities but gotta admit the movie was shocking but was shot really well.

it's titled "Life is beautiful" and well is basically an italian film. as for the details.. you watch and find out for yourself.

bowling tomorrow. another time-waster travelling back and forth. oh well, who knows, maybe it'll be fun.

right, back to slacking, shall update sooooon

2010-10-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

wheeeeee today was awesome!

I sing hosanna :D

for those going for the sat/sun sessions, be prepared to have a blast!

oh and today marks the end of the giving back of marks/scripts.

yep i'm grateful for my grades and i know it'll all work in favour for me

yay my Jesus, my Lord, I love you, thank you.

here's a prayer for all our dearest year 6 seniors taking A levels in less than a month's time..

may the Lord watch over them and help them with all difficulties allowing them to emerge as another batch of year 6s with excellent results!

right.. currently wasting away on the sofa while typing all these.

ought to think of something more constructive to do.

probably tomorrow :/

haha goodnight friends, have a greatttt night~

2010-10-11T07:59:00.001-07:00

hey world, im back in action :D

yep after a long hiatus due to EOYs (which is fortunately over now), i'm glad to be back.

so basically, it's the holidays now, only monday and tuesday that is, for the marking of scripts.

went on 4D class outing today and had an awesome time.

the heat's getting unbearable these few days and just a few hours of riding a bike can get you a nice overtan(sunburn).

going out tomorrow with daddy and mummy for a movie and probably to munch on something nice, checking out any new restaurants.

in short, it's been nothing but bliss ever since friday.

butt's aching after 2 rounds of biking and therefore in no mood to write a lengthy post currently.

goodbye till tomorrow (:

so where's all that "family" concept gone?

i thought you were so obsessed about that just a few months back.

why, a little media exposure got to your head?

that's some really dirty things you're up to.

that kind of attitude won't carry you nowhere.

indeed, that may be a starting point for many, but it will end up being an ending point for none.

it will soon only end up being a stepping stone to greater success for all.

next time when you feel that things aren't meeting your "high, great" standards, don't come asking us for reasons anymore cos this time,

it's no one's fault but yours.

until you reflect and realise your mistakes, even your own "family" won't be there to save your ass.

2010-09-22T07:54:00.001-07:00

wheee updating amidst all the revision and whatnot cos it's been an awesome day today :D

8 more days to EOYs! i can't wait~ i know it's gonna be victorious (:

Daddy God I pray that everyday will be as great as today. you opened my eyes again to other ways of how you use, guide and listen to us, your children. It's touching to see how you have impacted so many lives, including mine. to hear about You even during class surprised me and probably one of the best lessons of my life. thank you for placing such an awesome teacher at the right place and right time. i know it isn't pure coincidence that we're one of the two classes he's teaching this year. So, I pray that you bless and guide him whichever way he may choose to go.

and as for those who are still frantically desperately staring, copying, writing, memorizing, studying as the world revolves around you, i can definitely tell you that you're missing out on the most valuable things you can probably hear in life. maybe it's time to grow up a bit, be more mature and pay attention instead, to things that are truly important. don't act like the quality of your life depends on how well you stare at the textbook.

not because of who I am

but because of what you've done

not because of what I've done

but because of who you are

-Who am I (Casting Crowns)

wonderful song (: silent reader zinc, go listen when you have the time!

signing offfff :D

2010-09-05T23:44:00.000-07:00

yup im back~ :D

awesome service in church yesterday by pastor prince ^^ nice to see that everyone agrees.

oh yes haven't posted about this yet but it's simply amazing how Daddy God has so much grace and favour poured out for youths as well.

Isabelle Li and Rainer Ng are wonderful testimonies for that and it's great to know that despite all that competition, they never forgot about Him. (it's also great that they attend the same church as I do. haha)

was getting annoyed initially by the YOG promotion videos on TV yesterday but then Daddy God opened my eyes to see something i never noticed before. suddenly recalled that i saw isabelle li wearing the cross during the video testimony in church and yep, she was wearing it during competition too :D praise God :D

it's the one week break and though there's lots to do since it's the final stretch already, i'll look to the endless supply you can give, and not the demand placed on me Lord.

allllllll right time for more revision!

more to come soooon~

2010-08-31T21:53:00.001-07:00

hi bloggie. i know you've been abandoned for the past few days but yep, here i am again *gives love*.

today was a blast. haha though we didn't manage to catch the teacher's day performance and had to stand in the hot sun rubbing and scrubbing away, it was still awesome.

3 cheers for 4D ^^

amazing how we managed to clean all the cars in the parking lot within that short span of time. there was like >50 cars?

won't forget all that smoke rising from cars that have been in the sun for hours, the splashing of water using hose/pails, all that muddy dried muck and bird shit. and of course, lastly, the cute post-its on the windscreen wipers.

as usual, it's great fun bringing a smile to other's faces and making their day so i hope everyone enjoyed themselves as much as i did :)

teacher's day holiday tomorrow and it's high time for a haircut. let's see what new hairstyle Don 哥哥 can produce tomorrow.

it's officially a month minus one day to EOY.

여로분 , 화이팀!

no matter what the world says against you Jesus, the fact that I am still alive, my heart beating ever so strongly for you, is the greatest testimony of your existence. only you could have been strong enough to save someone who was foolish enough to consider forsaking everything once in her life.

(edit) haha wanted to post this yesterday but couldnt finish in time so here i am posting it on WEDNESDAY.

more of you and less of me (:

2010-08-23T02:55:00.000-07:00

i know it's been ages since i last updated. so here i am back again, for my dearest silent reader and whoever else who actually follows this page :D

it's drizzling now as there's been a whole lot of lightning for the past 10 minutes. watching yog tt match between france and hungary. hardly paying attention though. wondering what to do to better prepare for the upcoming 4 tests. these few weeks have been really fast-paced and there's something to do everyday, keeping you busy. hasn't been easy but i know i've an almighty superhero, always by my side every single step i take and every week i look forward to hear His word :) it's Fallen: the musical this saturday and Lord, I pray that more hearts will be open to you and that every seed you plant in each precious heart will grow to become a strong tree, who will grow to have strong faith in you and yearn to know you even better.

hey my silent reader zinc :D i know you'll see this~

i'm sure you'll be able to go back to hear God's word every week really soon and meanwhile, don't forget that He'll be there for you throughout this time, looking out for you!

right shall update soon, promise!

2010-08-09T08:39:00.000-07:00

it's been a long journey, 45 years to be exact.

though i was not there to experience everything you've been through

but today, i've finally been able to get an insight into what it was like then.

i know it hasn't been easy

and it couldn't have been a success if not for each and every person.

but just like many others, i'm guilty for only appreciating and valuing you once a year during this day.

of course, there's been the grumbles and complains about everything under the sun as well, (and there still will be)

the government, the ERP, the GST, (maybe that's a skill to be proud of)..

there's no guarantee that i'll be with you my whole life,

that i won't leave,

that i'll try to remember and treasure you more than just once a year,

though one thing's for sure. you'll be within me no matter where I may go, and that i'm proud to be part of you and your history.

happy birthday Singapore and God bless you (:

2010-08-08T08:59:00.001-07:00

sigh quick update

thank goddd it's a holiday now.

%$^!$#$^ tired. can hardly type properly for 作文 :/

but anyway, yhope yesterday was awesome :D

cant wait to bring people to Dare youth service too!

urgh, there's still sooo much to do for the next 2 days

and i pray that you give me strength and wisdom to complete everything that's left jesus :)

right, so.. ah yes it's eddrick's first month celebration today.

heh my cute little nephew :D

and i got to see my niece at the same time too ^^

update tomorrow!

2010-08-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

awwwww seriously how can someone ever be that cute!

haha only these 2 can make me spazz that much.

do that again next week please~ ^^

right, its the teacher-proclaimed "long" national holidays. and as usual, theres a whole lot to do.

at last bio and geog projects have been cleared. sigh thank god.

ah and it was what i would call a miracle, the thing that happened last night.

i never expected that word to ever come out of her mouth, but hey, it did and though i've already forgiven her before that, i'm still glad she said that.

y-hope tomorrow! jesus i pray that there won't be any delay for the first dance class! don't wanna let my poor friends starve.

right then, update tomorrow ^^

2010-08-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

everything just kinda came back and hit me hard after reading a particular post on another blog.
the whole journey with you daddy God has been really fulfilling and i just want you to know that i haven't forgotten all that you've done for me.
i know i'm guilty of feeling like you've been sleeping through certain times when i face difficulties though i know i shouldn't be worrying. (after all you calmed the storm with just one word).
i admit that i do just flow with the ways of the world after a while because your grace isn't something natural and as humans, we do forget.
but it's great to remember that you know about everything we do for you, however insignificant, and i want to keep trusting in you for every problem in my life, and share with you all the joyous times i've experienced.
i do wish to do more, especially in youth group, though it really isn't easy to connect to people in that particular manner and i'll be praying to you for more help in this area.
and of course, for my dad to be able to open his heart and accept you one day. only you can make this happen so i'm trusting you for this too!
Y-hope musical this Saturday with dhs friends and i do hope that any non-believers will feel the love of daddy God and come to accept Him as their lord and savior (:

& of course lastly, my secret blog stalker/reader, ZINC :D thank you for the awesome blog posts!

2010-08-04T08:34:00.001-07:00

cannot help reiterating this but seriously my groupmates are ABSOLUTELY AWESOME.
it is simply beyond my comprehension how people can be so irresponsible.
so only individual projects matter to you? when it comes to group projects you just shun your responsibility around and expect that at the end of the day, the report will miraculously appear, all ready to hand in?
OR even better, just hope that the teacher will give an extension? And what if she doesn't? I hope you do consider going down on your knees to beg.

seriously the next time some moron suggests letting the teacher group us for projects, don't blame me if you incur multiple bruises after that.
if you're so enthusiastic about "mixing around and generating fresh and new ideas" then go ahead. no one else is interested but like-minded morons like you.

pardon my language.

haha what a joke. to top it off, someone that simply doesn't understand simple instructions in english.
(instruction: search on environmental impacts. result: a whole lot of social impacts that was already done long ago)

currently i'm left with one group member online with the rest in lala land and her favourite strategy? : let's just hope the teacher extends.
life is simply great. i feel like a sitting duck.

哥，我知道你放暑假玩得不亦乐乎，但是快上网吧, 只有你愿意听我诉苦。现在超需要你的。
到底跑到那里去了嘛 ):

2010-08-03T07:31:00.000-07:00

working with a group of sell-fish, irresponsible groupmates, getting happy about bio marks and then depressed shortly after, and feeling so tired that i couldn't even write properly for 2 whole periods of geog briefly summarizes how these few days have been. not to mention so many other things that are still going on.

just to emphasize my point, the sell-fish groupmates thing totally tops it.

yes jesus, i am trying to love thy enemy like thy neighbour, but unfortunately this group of people are indeed testing my limits. fortunately though, i know your patience has no limits so i'm sure you'll be able to contain all my grievances. i'm sorry you have to hear me gripe/whine/cry every night and thank you for being so understanding.

it seems like the world is convincing me to just go with the flow, study well, graduate, and just get a stable job. though interest matters, but it never does as much as getting a stable job. and somehow today, i felt that bit of my heart just relenting and giving up the fight. please don't allow that to happen jesus. you know how much that means to me and i am trusting you for that miracle. so before that happens, guard my heart and don't allow anyone but you to control its ways.

right, but of course there are some things that did make my day, one being 동욱오빠 and his 뮤직뱅크'06 performance.

totally feel your heart skip a beat when he reveals his eyes.

she's really lucky to have him ^^

update soon.

oh piano exam tomorrow. whee.

2010-07-30T08:20:00.000-07:00

reallly quick update since i'm supposed to be watching a show nowww.

동욱오빠 너무 멌있어요 ^^

자랑해~

urgh update more tomorrow.

bio report is a torture to search for.

2010-07-22T07:01:00.000-07:00

其实真的好想告诉你们，得到你们的认同和支持，明明每天就在我身旁的你们，要说出来也不是什么难事，但就因为一生只面对着你们一起生活，依靠这你们，每当想鼓起勇气全部吐出来时，话到嘴边却有因为知道会让你担心，伤心，很不应该，最后又不忍心说什么。其实老早前也有暗示过，而且我也知道你们根本不把它当一回事，认为只是童年时代对东西的“三分钟热度”。那如果说我是认真的呢？

有时真的很想凭对它的热忱，硬着头皮试试看，却有担心如果成功了那你们又怎么办。虽然说青春的确一去不回，机会也只不过存在这几年内，但是为了你们，我真的能够彻底放弃吗？

背对着每晚都在身旁的你抽泣，有时真的好辛苦。

我也了解你很希望我出人头地，那应该也是每个当父母对子女的希望吧，但是老实说，每当把它与你所希望的拿来当比较时，只要有它在的地方，不论是再好的东西似乎都永远无法超越我希望拥有它的那种心情。

4。唯独这一次，我也写不出什么来。

可能从一开始，是我野心太大了。

原来要写出应该踊跃继续生活的原因还真的是有够困难的。

2010-07-20T08:39:00.001-07:00

wooh it's outttt :D

awesome stuff ^^ can't wait for the mv as well.

hurry yg :/

동욱오빠 짱이다~

사랑해요 ^^

2010-07-20T06:25:00.001-07:00

totally should be doing LA OP but ahhh, wdv. just a quick update.

have to write this :/

sigh that interview was just kinda.. heartwrenching.

poor 한경오빠.

simply reminds you about everything you've heard, all the stories and you've been asking yourself if one would ever be that cruel.

and it turns out that someone has stepped out to tell you, no it isn't a myth and it feels like you've been slapped hard with the truth

i can't deny that it has made me reconsider everything, but in the end, it still hasn't changed much.

afterall, it is part of what i live for.

listening to all the songs, watching every performance, it really reminds you how much they've been through.

and to all those that have just jumped onto this bandwagon due to the recent craze and everything,

listen good. you have no right to hate any of them.

they've worked hard to be where they are today and who are you to be the judge of their efforts?

they are worth a million times more than your screams and lust for them, as well as your jeers.

for those who are so desperate to show that you're unique such that you're shunning them,

take a moment to appreciate their music rather than their looks.

i promise you won't be disappointed.

can't waittttt for tomorrow ^^ a few more hours to go!

동욱 오빠 내가 기대하고 있어요..

what else is new.. hmm lucifer's out.

hyunnie and onew are charming as always, but minho's surprisingly good this time too.

3. 노래하는

2010-07-16T03:53:00.000-07:00

finally found some time to breathe and rest so i thought i should provide a longer update on what's been going on since last week.

come to think of it i hardly wrote even 1/4 of the things that have been happening/happened.

let's see. last saturday.. there was the harmonyworks conference with mingy,

attended a forensics talk on wed,

and CJ photoshoot ytd (:

was rather thankful for the photoshoot despite the fact that there was a CT today.

it was just awesome to see the crew again with xw and jy.

with all the songs and poses and dancing, heh it made my day (or week).

on a sidenote, IMMM is really addictive.

tomorrow there's the humanities trial by dhs and 4D's involved

and on sunday it's sachoom with daddy and dinner as a family (:

2 tests again next week. sigh.

although there's still a long way to go, simply can't wait for eoys to end.

it signifies more than just the end of the exams, but also the end of tuitions permanently and is the start of everything that i've always wanted to do (:

allrighttt update soon.

2010-07-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

sigh. it's just the start of the week and i already cant wait for it to end.

tired x 1000 ):

so basically, some lessons this week that encourage you to get some shut-eye: chinese and geog and for today, math.

and there are gonna be tests every week from now on. hooray.

zero inspiration to write a well-elaborated post. probably tomorrow then.

오빠, do release your full album soon~

need motivation from you :D

2. cos 오빠's new album is coming out soon (:

2010-07-07T08:18:00.000-07:00

gotta thank daddy god for making the talk that we heard today based on his works (:

i promise that i'll let you lead me every step of the way, bring you wherever i go and trust you in whatever i do, cos after all you know best.

thank you for everything you did for us (:

yet again, i've came across another awe-inspiring performance that sorta just jolted me to my senses and reminded me what i was pursuing all along. and at the same time, i've learnt to put that goal on the cross and just see jesus lead me towards it.

oh and 1 more thing, y'know how we're always saying "i'd die just to get that" and stuff along that line.. made me wonder why we cant ever say "i'd live just so that i can get that".

haha therefore, on impulse (or not), i've decided to put, at the end of every post from this day on, one reason that makes me want to live life even better, try even harder and just.. not give up even when things start to suck.

even if one day i do run out of reasons to write (which i truly doubt i would), theres always this long list that will remind me that life is definitely worth living and if that i ever chose to give up, it would mean that all the reasons i wrote were invalid in the first place (which can't be the case).

1. because daddy god saved us, exchanging his life for ours (:

(and i hope that one day, i'll lose count ^^)

2010-07-07T01:42:00.001-07:00

school's been a dragggg recently.

i know it's only week 2, but it feels like it's been forever.

probably cos of the new timetable.

oh well at least school starts at 9am tomorrow.

and theres a whole lot of tests being crammed in the next few weeks :/

this week: LA + chem

next week: Bio + math 1

week 4: chem

and it's gonna be busy during the weekends toooo.

ah, and it seems to be the final few rounds for the world cup.

go germany :D not that i'd stay up to 2:30am to watch you play, but anyway yay germany. ignore what the octopus predicted (you know octopus' are yummy but pretty brainless).

sigh. time to go back to ACE report. tata~

2010-07-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

really surprised me there, and i thought it wouldn't affect me one bit.

though i really wonder whether it hurts more because it used to be "we" or whether its just me being sad over losing something that i chose to let go in the first place.

maybe it's just the fact that everyone's finding someone.

honestly, there's hardly been a day that i can walk around these people and yet still hold my head high at the fact that i'm different.

it's really disheartening to see the chinese music industry declining that much in recent years.

after all the first song i loved in my life was a chinese one and all my favourite songs up till now are still chinese ones.

i really do hope that up till the day that my ears fail on me, i will still be able to hear a constant supply of cpop songs.

hate the fact that the english pop industry is busy churning out a whole bunch of substandard songs with a shitload of horrible lyrics in the period when the cpop industry's been remaining stagnant.

even daddy agrees and we're both hoping that it'll recover really soon.

it's 11:11 (: jesus, do revive it yeah

with the release of his album, really hope it gets the industry up and moving on its feet again.

知道吗,你的确是超人。别怕飞不了，也别流泪，因为若不是你的话，那谁也办不到。

2010-07-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

haven't updated in quite a while

in fact i haven't been using the computer for ages (or at least what feels like ages to me)

not that the thought of blogging didn't strike me a few times over the past week

just that there's so much to talk about, so much to vent, so much to reflect, that when i begin to type it out, i wonder if it's just me who cares about such matters.

well, school's reopened already and the first week's been survivable i guess.

i've heard the phrase "it's going to be a short term" at least 4 times this week and i guess it's been the driving force for me to just swallow all the complains, tie myself to the study table and start revising.

as much as i'd like to believe that not doing exceedingly well does not mean that i'd fail in life eventually, this streak of revision fever is "dedicated" to my parents more than anyone else. sure, it's for my own future as well, but i still feel that there's more to life than that.

of course, amidst this studying mania, i don't desire/ lust/ attempt to be anywhere near the tops. it's been a period of witnessing people being so obsessed about studies you really question whether they actually have a life anywhere outside the textbooks. to me, it's just plain pathetic when the only topics of conversation they have is "did you get the same answer as me? have you finished this and that homework? did you study this and that? teacher teacher, why did i not get the right answer? ohhhh i see now. i made a careless mistake, how dumb of me." and every single attempt to make a joke just unavoidably draws a big yawn out of you.

so it's gonna be a busy term and definitely, being busy's good.

makes you temporarily forget so many things you don't want to recall.

2010-06-24T00:31:00.000-07:00

been wanting to blog about this a few days ago.

sigh.

i know it has nothing much to do with me but i honestly can't help wondering.

even most people agree she isn't for you and there's so many others out there.

i don't know whether it's the fact that she's not the one for you or the fact that you're actually with someone that bothers me.

maybe it's a little of both.

hey, you know you deserve someone so much better.

the whole problem with this game is when you're in it, you're blind to everything else around you.

please, take a good look at where you're headed.

that alone is no reason why she should be the one. there are millions out there who can fulfill the same criteria.

and with this, it's dance prac time (:

2010-06-23T20:13:00.000-07:00

well.. time to face the facts.

holiday is indeed ending.

and as sarah cheong would say, that suxballs.

sigh.

there's still some homework undone and i ought to be feeling a sense of urgency but apparently it hasn't hit me yet.

just realised all the awesome great wonderful jaw-dropping etc. movies will only be screened after the holidays.

god knows what on earth they're thinking.

wdv. i'll still set aside time to watch them.

dance prac later again.

in fact there been prac everyday.

so we've been kept busy but happy.

formation's in place as of yesterday so it looks great.

going early to play&prac with deb first.

by the way, there's open house at celine jessandra's this saturday so yeah, if anyone's free do come down..

mtv classes available with special promotions.

trial lessons too.

hmm currently there's b2st's shock left i think.

2010-06-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

yep im back.

haha i've got.. 10 mins to write this post. definitely not enough to write all that i want but okay i shall rushhh.

still spazzing over the fact that dearest 오빠 is coming back (:

that aside, to continue with what i was saying yesterday.

so unexpectedly, the rather memorable and annoying medical condition that hasn't visited me for around 5 years or so decided to drop by for tea (or rather dinner since it usually happens at night) and therefore it entails a visit to a long time no see childhood doctor.

he hasn't changed one bit haha. would have to say i really did miss him in some way. feels like visiting an old friend. and y'know just that as you grow older, the way you view things change drastically. so, it was interesting to see how things have changed and how much they've stayed the same as well. and it's great to know that even as things change, people do stay the same.

feel that familiar wavering again.

but heart, you've got to understand that brain isn't that great.

i know you want it so much that it hurts but brain can't do it, it just isn't that smart, just isn't that good enough.

recently, it's been a treasure trove of great songs, mainstream and non-mainstream alike.

i'll never let this feeling go (:

2010-06-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

omg x1000, 동욱오빠 is making a comeback. yesyesyesyesyes :D

wheee~

okay apart from that.

have been going out continuously this week, nearly every day, like some marathon.

finally there's some break time over this weekend before next week becomes another marathon.

hmm this holiday's been pretty productive i would say, not only in terms of homework/revision but also in meeting people i used to know.

had to meet someone i didn't expect to meet & have not met in years.

update more tomorrow :D

2010-06-13T23:31:00.001-07:00

dance practice later for cj open house~

meeting debbie at city hall mrt first (:

i miss my normal voice so much ):

voice, if you can see this, please come back soon!

i need you badly!

sigh can't wait to be able to try out some more songs i've spotted recently.

it's great to see inspirations pop up in unexpected places.

just reminds you how they've succeeded in pursuing their dreams

and that you should never give up on yours.

maybe, it really never is too late to try.

although i can't do charge ahead in full force now,

and may never be able to do so until much later

but i'll still hold on tight to what I love so much and can't do without.

and i'll keep praying cos i know He always hears me (:

seriously think i should wear a mask out next time.

inconsiderate singaporeans enjoy spraying their germ-filled spit everywhere through coughing/sneezing right in your face.

careful i stuff a 3-ply tissue right into that gab of yours next time.

>:( x1000

2010-06-10T00:39:00.000-07:00

it's the holidays now and a time where you realize the amount of homework and revision waiting for you. can't say when i've been happier than this though. it's nice to be able to do homework at your own preferred pace without deadlines staring so close to you in the face. and definitely there's more time for everything else. finally there's some space to breathe and reflect more. time to catch up with some old friends too.

为2元鱼圆面大打出手　小贩砍断顾客拇指监１天罚万元

哎虽然最终仍椅子是食客的不对，但那算什么服务水准啊。就算顾客有千白种要求，身为摊主的你也要尽力配合啊。什么烂借口，竟然以食物的价钱来决定服务水平。那全世界的小吃摊早就倒了。没办法，新加坡人嘛。还能奢望什么呢。

at last the tv schedule's back to normal and i see that channel 5's at last making a great effort to improve the quality of its shows. at least it's watchable now. deserves encouragement. then again, perhaps it still lacks something important before it can compete with other channels.

지훈 오빠 트위터 있다! 너무 행복해~ ㅋ

2010-06-03T08:07:00.001-07:00

thank you for all the guidance, allowing me to discover patience i never knew i had, the ability to make the little ones happy and to see for myself how wonderful parents can be.

it has been a great four days with you guys (:

pearlynnn, you miss JJ junior already don't you :D haha so do i.

and lastly, i've truly understood that beauty was never about looks on the outside.

even if you aren't perfect on the outside JJ junior, you're still our favourite :D

那些社会人渣，最好给我早点滚蛋。看了都讨厌。难怪新加坡永远都无法达到令人满意的社会水准。

算了算了。移民不就得了。

WEP..

2010-06-02T06:55:00.001-07:00

had wep for the past couple of days (:

pretty good experience minus the early waking up.

based on the past three days:

most tiring: 1st day- music+ play therapy

interests me most: 3rd day- speech language therapy

most tough job (in my opinion)- 2nd day- physiologist

that pretty much sums up everything.

sigh. now for the pile of holiday homework sitting on my table waiting at me with hope shimmering in its eyes..

math holiday homework again.

crazy fools. telling us to study hard for year 3 work on one hand, and mercilessly dumping year 4 eoy papers on the other hand.

wake up man. people are never gonna do well if you don't give them time to study.

sometimes, when you've already been at the top, seen everything there is to see, you just want to go back to where it all started, mingling with people who are truly sincere.

2010-05-25T07:00:00.000-07:00

haha I thought I never liked khun. well well. I guess I love him as much as the other guys too.

happy shineeversary ^^ 2nd on the list currently :D

get well soon yonghwa!

let's pray for hangeng too.

portfolio&SGC due on thursday..

miss yeo! how could you inform us so late :/

iglocal presentation tomorrow. let's see how well last minute preparations can turn out to be. I'm really interested to know. especially when we're gonna be briefed by such a professional person-in-charge.

CIP on thursday :D

haha as usual, kinda excited despite doing 3 days of CIP just last week.

thanks for helping me find a way out again.

I promise I'll always look to the supply, and not the demand.

cos I know you're an overpayment for every demand, reasonable or not.

I'll let you do the work from now on. After all, the earth doesn't spin because of my own efforts.

and please let matt hear that too, jesus. cos I know then that he'll be truly happy.

2010-05-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

don't you ever realise that as much as you try to accept everyone as they are, there are always a few that are just don't fit.

it's been an awesome week and yeah, looking forward to next week.

learnt so much more about the school this week, the different rooms that we never did get to explore, plus a little glimpse into the out-of-bounds staff room.

found some really amazing songs again :)

it's always music that never fails to surprise me and i'm really thankful for its existence.

update soon~

kiseob = cuteness that can kill.

thank god youngie's voice is back ((:

reflections&songs

2010-05-20T07:01:00.000-07:00

going through the #1345321st crisis of today.

isn't it funny that projects always go so smoothly until the end when everything starts cropping up.

all printers of this world are probably evil.

they always die on their owners at the most crucial times.

fortunately, little hiccups on my printer for today.

(thank you for being such a nice printer today, canon.)

well.. cooking class was fun enough :)

heh. has inspired me to, for the first few times in my life, fry something over oil -.-

cip at lions' tomorrow (:

hope it'll go fine.

update soon..

오빠 사랑해~

level camp week (supposedly)

2010-05-19T01:23:00.000-07:00

while others are suffering at obs..

we are,

HAVING A WHALE OF A TIME :DDD

haha these few days so far have been awesome.

new friends, new groups, new places and new activities!

CIP at lion's home on the first two days were.. pretty good (:

didn't expect the elderly to have the same type of response as those at all saints' home though ):

it's just maddening how kids can just throw their parents into those kind of homes and leave them to... idk.

some are perfectly young and fine. I can understand if they have medical conditions and have difficulty taking care of themselves due to dementia or something, but some are still really active in the head though they may not be mobile but they know what's going on and it's just cruel to dump them in a home. not that i'm implying that if they have dementia, it's fine to dump them in a home.

well. the activities didn't really suit them well but still it was a good experience.

today was a field trip to horticulture park :D

haha had lots of fun running around snapping lots of pretty flowers with isabellyyy.

mm btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLY! treeesh loveeeessss you

hort park's really pretty. definitely will revisit some day when i get the chance :)

we should have 10 times as much of such field trips (:

tomorrow's activity?

cooking thunder tea rice with mr. kiw ^^

heard it's good sooo yup anticipating much though i can't cook to save my life.

this will probably be the one and only home econs lesson i'll have my whole life :D

friday!

our planned activity + mr kiw's group i think :/

yup :D

next week?

electives week!

can't wait to watch local films :D

#coMeBLAQ & #happyBAEday :D

trenddd people~