Saturday, July 23, 2011 @ 4:24 AM
逃避虽然不是好办法，但已目前情况看来，是生存的唯一方法。
感觉就像是突然之间的清醒，找到了自己所要的，但却落然发现自己现在走的路离梦想好远，发现可能下半辈子都会在为别人而赛跑。
那种感觉的确可怕。唯有在不去想它的情况下，才能说服自己走的真的是对的路，说服自己梦想不必他们的希望重要。
依旧思念谁也无法替代的你。
就像是你每天都在帮助我了解你离去的原因。
我不怪你，也从来不曾埋怨过。
但因为了解，更加痛心。
有了你的指点，我又如何不去在乎和你我一样的那群人呢？
为了你，有了祂，我们一起争取吧。
Thursday, July 14, 2011 @ 8:43 AM
너무 힘들어요.. 힝~
포기 또 하고싶어요
今天听了那句话后心莫名其妙地揪了一下。
如果能多听到这样的话就好了。
其实想要知道的也只不过是你是否也理解这一切。
只要能够偶尔告诉我，你也了解其中的辛苦
而别再不把这当作一回事，不把努力看在眼里，别再蒙着眼睛活在自己的世界里，
就算再辛苦，可能这次就真的能找到再继续走的理由。
其实那理由在很久之前就已失去，为何能走到今天完完全全靠的是祂所赐的力量。
的确，感激地心情无法用言语形容。但同时，在往后的日子里，我也希望能够得到你的体谅。
就当是我守护这个秘密的代价吧。
Sunday, July 3, 2011 @ 1:30 AM
whooo temporal liberation. how sweet the smell.
love the feeling of not having to worry about anything else while going out/slacking.
why can't it always be like this?
time to catch up on rm/family outing/immortal song 2 ^^
ministry + service today!
had a sudden thought about this after reading the fb updates about b2st's fanmeet.
it's always great and inspiring after such fanmeets/performances/plays, especially when they reflect your own dream so aptly.
yet this often doesn't last for long after different things in life start dragging you down.
so i'm thankful i've someone eternal, that lives outside time, who's the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end to everything.
that it's no longer just a temporary high, but the walk of a lifetime with Him.
surprisingly, though time has passed so quickly and things have moved on ever since, it all comes to a standstill when I know you're there.
never knew how even word, every note could be so intrinsically linked to you.
it still hurts, knowing that even if life could rewind, i probably wouldn't have the chance to save you.
never knew that the sky could embody so much of you. i'm glad you found your peace in the vanilla skies above and i know you're safe in His hands now.
다시 어디서 내가 어디서 받겠습니까
과분했던 그 사랑 이젠 그대 내 곁에 없는데
너무 고마워서라도 미안해서라도 난
그대를 잊을 수가 없겠죠
많이 보고싶겠죠..
과분했던 그 사랑 이젠 그대 내 곁에 없는데
너무 고마워서라도 미안해서라도 난
그대를 잊을 수가 없겠죠
많이 보고싶겠죠..
Tuesday, June 7, 2011 @ 9:40 AM
사실은, 나도 가고싶어요.. 잠시만 기다려주세요;
going through a war alongside a comrade, a brother, you survive and he doesn't.
what hurts for most is that they don't see how they lost him, and never realised they could.
yet in fact, knowing how it actually happened from the start to the end makes it even harder to accept or let go.
Monday, May 30, 2011 @ 11:28 PM
reviewing all your past stages, kinda wondered why no one ever appreciated you more.
but all that doesn't matter anymore, anyway.
to think that we were once standing at the same point;
now that you're gone, it feels almost like losing a brother.
though it hurts a lot to know you didn't manage to find a way to escape, i know you're now happier there than you would be if you were still here
행복해주세요..
Saturday, May 28, 2011 @ 9:03 AM
well well.. its the holidays but before i come to what i'm gonna do for the upcoming hols, loads of things have happened in the past few weeks..
firstly, 5 tests this week. nearly killed me, no joke. can't remember one night that i slept earlier than 1. in the end, had no choice but to sacrifice studying for one. simply no time. sorry math, think i just flunked you.
secondly, 3 consecutive days where 3 teachers announced their leave. not that we have a very strong teaching group to start with. now all the better ones are gone, leaving the weak ones to struggle. how displeasing. i wonder what'll happen to our reputation.
but anyhow, change is inevitable, just like how man's love for God is seldom consistent. but God's love for man is never-changing and despite all changes that happen with time, i'm glad God's there all the way. It's like He's a common platform and with Him around, you know that in the end there'll still be reunion.
thirdly, i see you've backed down. and for once, there's more relief than regret. glad that i never agreed, cos it'd definitely have been for the wrong reasons.
with all the recent suicides of celebrities and the criticisms popping up, kinda reminds me about how i used to do the same until the whole episode changed my mind. and i've gotta say i understand why they did it, and that it actually isn't as wrong as you think it is..
great time for reunion in fact, with relatives today @ goodwood park. it's been quite a while since we got together and it's timely that we did at the start of my holidays.
unfortunately i sound like a horse now. not too happy about that at all.
finally had the time to watch reruns of variety shows, catch up on practice vids and everything.
sigh eye candy :D
kiseobbie, daniel, wyoung <3
kiseobbie, daniel, wyoung <3
glad gorgor's catching up too.
Thursday, May 19, 2011 @ 9:44 AM
this has been bugging me recently, especially after all that's happened.
the right one will come along someday.
the one who knows even when you don't speak, who hears everything you're unable to say, who'll offer comfort hugs for every storm.
yet no matter how I envision it to be, I don't see you in my future.