Wednesday, March 31, 2010 @ 7:36 AM
really annoyed.
and it's hard not to be when everyone's telling you that prestige is based on academic competitions, getting 1st,2nd or 3rd, having leadership roles and so on.
well after so long and in the course of becoming old and wise, at least one of you bunch of fools should have realised that not everything is based on that.
how can you ever use placings, medals, or whether any leadership role was taken upon oneself to determine whether an individual has done well in service learning projects, and CIP?
we were always told to do it with a caring heart.
well apparently you aren't judging it with one.
doesn't mean that the leader contributes the most, cos more than often, she is so busy shouting nonsense that hardly helps, and it's the what you like to call "TRIVIAL" members that help to clean up all the mess she's creating.
if you can't even recognise the little efforts put in by every single member, and even resort to calling that a trivial achievement/participation, then i believe you're always in the leader position, shouting nonsense, never ever noticing everyone around you that's putting in so much more effort in terms of action than you are.
how shameful.
just to let you know. social work was never meant to be a competition against anyone, never meant to be a proof to anyone to show that you're sooo caring and helpful.
service learning is best done when no one is watching, and as long as it brings a smile to the people in need, that's the only thing needed to prove to yourself that everything was worth it.
Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 7:48 AM
ah. at last.
finished up almost all the hols homework.
leaving some minor ones behind.
probably resort to copying again tomorrow if there's a need to hand in.
one day, when you no longer care or realise, i'll transform into someone you never knew.
school tomorrow.. well it didn't ever feel like school actually stopped for a week anyway.
Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 8:57 AM
quick night update ^^
pw's nearly done. (thank god)
49% through geog essay which comprises of 90% cut and paste.
there's still jianbao, bio summative, bio concept map(sorry hom, definitely not by tomorrow), chinese proj writeup, ace prep, and log ct revision.
urgh (justkillme).
out of creative juices for ANY essay on this planet.
dislike this.
essays should never be cut and paste buttt well, this time, it's their fault anyways.
there's only like 3 days of holiday left and this week totally didn't feel like holiday. expected.
yes, that odd i-want-to-break-down-and-disintegrate feeling is back in action.
perhaps it will, tonight.
update soon~
woohyunnie= < 3
Monday, March 15, 2010 @ 6:55 AM
sigh my eyes feel like they're dying from too much computer usage.
sorry eyes. can't save you either.
finally made up my mind for pw :)
found so many interesting websites while surfing aimlessly today.
^^
update soon.
@ 1:13 AM
an after lunch post ~
urgh PW's killing me. and so is geog essay.
panama/myanmar!
can't make up my mind ):
2nd world isn't exactly developing but its not developed either!
don't really wanna risk it.
but too 3rd world is also too difficult to solve.
it's not practical. sigh.
and the effing geog essay -.-
stop acting all pretty and cute in front of him for goodness sake.
that is so (pardon me) ****ing disgusting.
and you're still trying to act all innocent after that, like as though the whole world would never guess that you have a major crush on him?
and if he actually likes that, he must be out of his mind to enjoy someone like you flirting with him.
youngie, miss you loads < 3
come back soon yeah.
Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 12:28 AM
yes, i guess after that visit, i've really made up my mind.
or at least i hope so.
note to self: try not to waver again >:( yes there are so many tempting choices out there but this one's really what you should be doing because you know you love it too. so what even if it may not be the best? maybe for once you should at least live for yourself ( a little that is).
can't wait for the next visit..
get well soon <3 할머니 사랑해요 ^^
and i've finally found the reason why i simply can't put down her books <3
it's because everything she writes about, all the rhetorical questions, are really the ones that i've been asking myself over and over again too.
everything bad that i've not dared to do and wondered what the consequences would be if i actually did it, has all been described in detail now. and it's awesome to know. it doesn't warn you against doing it, in fact there's no personal opinion at all. maybe that's the best part. it makes you imagine what would happen if you really did it, and if it's actually worth it. and despite certain consequences i know it may bring, i still find myself contemplating about whether, if one day, when _________________, i would do the same.
it's been raining lots over the past few days.
agreed?
good thing indeed. its been awfully hazy as mentioned before.
i ought to be getting down to homework.
holidays! anyone going out? :D
all right update soon.
Thursday, March 11, 2010 @ 2:23 AM
and all of a sudden i have become so hardworking (at blogging i mean.)
so all the holiday homework's about confirmed already.
lets make a list..
1. jianbao (given)
2. jianbao (your own)
3. geog essay
4. Bias in news article
5. Chinese food recommendation essay
6. PW
7. Bio concept map (grp)
8. CME postcard (grp)
9. 3 math worksheets
10. ACE globalisation essay prep
11. Online portfolio
hola. wonderful spread of essays.
happy homeworking people.
productive halfday? yes/ no
i probably have an answer to that today. rare.
yes. in my opinion.
but its not the max i can do.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 @ 6:18 AM
no idea why but here's an update again.
sudden motivation?
haha.
fb's personality test is awesomely accurate.
not bad. im impressed.
infj <3
reminds me why we often have to put up with E's nonsense.
perhaps, Es dont understand Is either.
thats sad.
though i really dont see how Es can actually be happy in their sorta world,
but its all right, i still love I's world more :)
sigh. dearest neurons, why are you guys so troublesome.
sending one message dosent require the mobilization of allll your counterparts right?.
the air's been horrid recently.
i'm almost positive my lungs got dirtier in the span of 2 days.
cj's U.P..
yes/no?
update soon.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010 @ 7:11 AM
yup im back. after a week? nearly.
thought of watching vids but tempted to do something more productive.
while typing the url his blog came up coincidentally.
that blog just causes pangs of.. i don't know. envy? yet admiration?
although he has nearly everything that i hope for, he's also the living proof that it's possible.
it's less of "if he can do it, so can i", but rather "look where he is now. i'll never lose sight of this goal ever, because someone like him exists."
it seems as though he's there to remind me, just when i'm contemplating of shelving this whole idea at the back of my mind until what, a few years later? when it's all too late?
and that leads to the topic of choices.
what a dilemma it puts you in.
so indeed, what i've read in a comprehension nearly 4 years ago has proven itself true now.
school has never prepared us for the crossroads in life.
want to grab on to everything? sure. then you'll get your hand stuck in the candy jar.
let something go? but this isn't just candies we're talking about. it's a future.
different choices may not ultimately lead to something bad but what if one day i looked back and realised that if i had taken a small risk, it could have put me at a place that i've always wanted?
right, so 5 items for napfa ytd.
싫어.
cant wait to resume normal activites.
march holidays, yes approaching.
do we have any of it left? no.
not surprising.
so i guess the only time that i can actually literally sit around and do nothing, just thinking about things i like, reading books i yearn to so badly now, spamming vids of <3, is.. after the end of eoys. talking about this, theres finally something to rejoice about this year. since there wont be any holiday homework until year 5. or so i hope.
nj? yes/no
i don't know.
不管你之前列出了多少“理想男友”的该有的特征,一旦遇到他时,不论符不符合标准,感觉对时,这一切都早已抛到脑后了。
还以为真的真的已经都该放下,忘光了。
都过那么久了,到底还在期盼什么呢。
是在你找到幸福时能够亲自确认呢,还是至今仍以为你会回心转意的念头。
Monday, March 1, 2010 @ 6:16 AM
ran 2.4 today.
sigh. sleepiness is probably an after effect of doing that.
LA lecture was video filled. but still didnt serve much a purpose of keeping me awake.
and assembly was hell of a boring.
cca at 4 tmr. and its gonna always be that late.
absolutely WONDERFUL.
thanks to god knows which idiot.
waste of my time.
something tells me it's gonna be a longgg week.
):
simply thinking about it makes me angry.
how can you even call yourself H____ when all you're supporting is him,
all you're fighting for is for him,
all you've been caring about since then has only been him.
does he represent od? when people throw accusations at you not caring about the 6 others,
you always find a way to wriggle yourself out of that conversation.
we ask: what about the rest?
you defend: but he is this, he is that, he didn't do this, he didn't do that.
why is it always about him.
excuses.
well simply, no one qualifies as a H____ if all you want is just him.
might as well set up a group specially for him instead.
what do the rest mean to you?
have you ever considered what they may be going through as well?
how could you be so naive to think that every single thing they said was true?
never heard of the phrase external influences?
if you really love them, you'd never let them go through so much just to satisfy your desire.
can't you see they're hurt too?
if you can't give the rest of them the love they deserve, then you don't deserve to be H___ at all.
and for the rest who truly supports the real main group, 6 or 7, they're still our favourite.
let's give them even more love, to make up for all that they've been through and to make them feel even more loved than when they had that 14% more H_____.