Friday, July 30, 2010 @ 8:20 AM
reallly quick update since i'm supposed to be watching a show nowww.
동욱오빠 너무 멌있어요 ^^
자랑해~
urgh update more tomorrow.
bio report is a torture to search for.
Thursday, July 22, 2010 @ 7:01 AM
其实真的好想告诉你们，得到你们的认同和支持，明明每天就在我身旁的你们，要说出来也不是什么难事，但就因为一生只面对着你们一起生活，依靠这你们，每当想鼓起勇气全部吐出来时，话到嘴边却有因为知道会让你担心，伤心，很不应该，最后又不忍心说什么。其实老早前也有暗示过，而且我也知道你们根本不把它当一回事，认为只是童年时代对东西的“三分钟热度”。那如果说我是认真的呢？
有时真的很想凭对它的热忱，硬着头皮试试看，却有担心如果成功了那你们又怎么办。虽然说青春的确一去不回，机会也只不过存在这几年内，但是为了你们，我真的能够彻底放弃吗？
背对着每晚都在身旁的你抽泣，有时真的好辛苦。
我也了解你很希望我出人头地，那应该也是每个当父母对子女的希望吧，但是老实说，每当把它与你所希望的拿来当比较时，只要有它在的地方，不论是再好的东西似乎都永远无法超越我希望拥有它的那种心情。
4。唯独这一次，我也写不出什么来。
可能从一开始，是我野心太大了。
原来要写出应该踊跃继续生活的原因还真的是有够困难的。
Tuesday, July 20, 2010 @ 8:39 AM
wooh it's outttt :D
awesome stuff ^^ can't wait for the mv as well.
hurry yg :/
동욱오빠 짱이다~
사랑해요 ^^
@ 6:25 AM
totally should be doing LA OP but ahhh, wdv. just a quick update.
have to write this :/
sigh that interview was just kinda.. heartwrenching.
poor 한경오빠.
simply reminds you about everything you've heard, all the stories and you've been asking yourself if one would ever be that cruel.
and it turns out that someone has stepped out to tell you, no it isn't a myth and it feels like you've been slapped hard with the truth
i can't deny that it has made me reconsider everything, but in the end, it still hasn't changed much.
afterall, it is part of what i live for.
listening to all the songs, watching every performance, it really reminds you how much they've been through.
and to all those that have just jumped onto this bandwagon due to the recent craze and everything,
listen good. you have no right to hate any of them.
they've worked hard to be where they are today and who are you to be the judge of their efforts?
they are worth a million times more than your screams and lust for them, as well as your jeers.
for those who are so desperate to show that you're unique such that you're shunning them,
take a moment to appreciate their music rather than their looks.
i promise you won't be disappointed.
can't waittttt for tomorrow ^^ a few more hours to go!
동욱 오빠 내가 기대하고 있어요..
what else is new.. hmm lucifer's out.
hyunnie and onew are charming as always, but minho's surprisingly good this time too.
3. 노래하는
Friday, July 16, 2010 @ 3:53 AM
finally found some time to breathe and rest so i thought i should provide a longer update on what's been going on since last week.
come to think of it i hardly wrote even 1/4 of the things that have been happening/happened.
let's see. last saturday.. there was the harmonyworks conference with mingy,
attended a forensics talk on wed,
and CJ photoshoot ytd (:
was rather thankful for the photoshoot despite the fact that there was a CT today.
it was just awesome to see the crew again with xw and jy.
with all the songs and poses and dancing, heh it made my day (or week).
on a sidenote, IMMM is really addictive.
tomorrow there's the humanities trial by dhs and 4D's involved
and on sunday it's sachoom with daddy and dinner as a family (:
2 tests again next week. sigh.
although there's still a long way to go, simply can't wait for eoys to end.
it signifies more than just the end of the exams, but also the end of tuitions permanently and is the start of everything that i've always wanted to do (:
allrighttt update soon.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010 @ 8:27 AM
sigh. it's just the start of the week and i already cant wait for it to end.
tired x 1000 ):
so basically, some lessons this week that encourage you to get some shut-eye: chinese and geog and for today, math.
and there are gonna be tests every week from now on. hooray.
zero inspiration to write a well-elaborated post. probably tomorrow then.
오빠, do release your full album soon~
need motivation from you :D
2. cos 오빠's new album is coming out soon (:
Wednesday, July 7, 2010 @ 8:18 AM
gotta thank daddy god for making the talk that we heard today based on his works (:
i promise that i'll let you lead me every step of the way, bring you wherever i go and trust you in whatever i do, cos after all you know best.
thank you for everything you did for us (:
yet again, i've came across another awe-inspiring performance that sorta just jolted me to my senses and reminded me what i was pursuing all along. and at the same time, i've learnt to put that goal on the cross and just see jesus lead me towards it.
oh and 1 more thing, y'know how we're always saying "i'd die just to get that" and stuff along that line.. made me wonder why we cant ever say "i'd live just so that i can get that".
haha therefore, on impulse (or not), i've decided to put, at the end of every post from this day on, one reason that makes me want to live life even better, try even harder and just.. not give up even when things start to suck.
even if one day i do run out of reasons to write (which i truly doubt i would), theres always this long list that will remind me that life is definitely worth living and if that i ever chose to give up, it would mean that all the reasons i wrote were invalid in the first place (which can't be the case).
1. because daddy god saved us, exchanging his life for ours (:
(and i hope that one day, i'll lose count ^^)
@ 1:42 AM
school's been a dragggg recently.
i know it's only week 2, but it feels like it's been forever.
probably cos of the new timetable.
oh well at least school starts at 9am tomorrow.
and theres a whole lot of tests being crammed in the next few weeks :/
this week: LA + chem
next week: Bio + math 1
week 4: chem
and it's gonna be busy during the weekends toooo.
ah, and it seems to be the final few rounds for the world cup.
go germany :D not that i'd stay up to 2:30am to watch you play, but anyway yay germany. ignore what the octopus predicted (you know octopus' are yummy but pretty brainless).
sigh. time to go back to ACE report. tata~
Friday, July 2, 2010 @ 8:00 AM
really surprised me there, and i thought it wouldn't affect me one bit.
though i really wonder whether it hurts more because it used to be "we" or whether its just me being sad over losing something that i chose to let go in the first place.
maybe it's just the fact that everyone's finding someone.
honestly, there's hardly been a day that i can walk around these people and yet still hold my head high at the fact that i'm different.
it's really disheartening to see the chinese music industry declining that much in recent years.
after all the first song i loved in my life was a chinese one and all my favourite songs up till now are still chinese ones.
i really do hope that up till the day that my ears fail on me, i will still be able to hear a constant supply of cpop songs.
hate the fact that the english pop industry is busy churning out a whole bunch of substandard songs with a shitload of horrible lyrics in the period when the cpop industry's been remaining stagnant.
even daddy agrees and we're both hoping that it'll recover really soon.
it's 11:11 (: jesus, do revive it yeah
with the release of his album, really hope it gets the industry up and moving on its feet again.
知道吗,你的确是超人。别怕飞不了，也别流泪，因为若不是你的话，那谁也办不到。
Thursday, July 1, 2010 @ 6:41 AM
haven't updated in quite a while
in fact i haven't been using the computer for ages (or at least what feels like ages to me)
not that the thought of blogging didn't strike me a few times over the past week
just that there's so much to talk about, so much to vent, so much to reflect, that when i begin to type it out, i wonder if it's just me who cares about such matters.
well, school's reopened already and the first week's been survivable i guess.
i've heard the phrase "it's going to be a short term" at least 4 times this week and i guess it's been the driving force for me to just swallow all the complains, tie myself to the study table and start revising.
as much as i'd like to believe that not doing exceedingly well does not mean that i'd fail in life eventually, this streak of revision fever is "dedicated" to my parents more than anyone else. sure, it's for my own future as well, but i still feel that there's more to life than that.
of course, amidst this studying mania, i don't desire/ lust/ attempt to be anywhere near the tops. it's been a period of witnessing people being so obsessed about studies you really question whether they actually have a life anywhere outside the textbooks. to me, it's just plain pathetic when the only topics of conversation they have is "did you get the same answer as me? have you finished this and that homework? did you study this and that? teacher teacher, why did i not get the right answer? ohhhh i see now. i made a careless mistake, how dumb of me." and every single attempt to make a joke just unavoidably draws a big yawn out of you.
so it's gonna be a busy term and definitely, being busy's good.
makes you temporarily forget so many things you don't want to recall.