Thursday, March 24, 2011 @ 9:10 AM
it's been a long time..
just discovered a rather shocking news (to me that is). never really expected someone like that to suddenly leave.
though we aren't extremely old friends, it kinda left me thinking.
the choice of school made me think of one that seeped through the cracks, going into a place society would never dare to take a step into.
would i call it envy? at that moment that's what it felt like. that i envied she's going somewhere different, where perhaps, social norms didnt apply as much. that for once, maybe she gets to decide when to strive forward, and when to just stop to admire everything in life. where i felt that God definitely could take an even higher priority.
i hate the fact that as much as i would love to do that, i wouldn't be able to muster up the courage. that in the end, i was still the cowardly being that followed the flow of things. whether that is something that is truly the right thing to do, is yet to be seen.
hate the fact that there exists no equilibrium between money and interest. that its either one or the other. that everyone hopes for the latter. that for my case, interest doesn't equal money and vice versa. that my mum cant accept that.
that for the time being.. im still who the world hopes i can be.
Sunday, March 13, 2011 @ 9:06 AM
心情好矛盾。
起初认为你应该不会在乎这些，所以也不该靠太近。
现在又开始在怀疑今天不寻常的例行，原因到底是什么..
powerful prayer for Japan by pastor Lawrence today,
indeed Lord, anoint all rescuers and give them the wisdom and guide them to find all the survivors.
as for the missing, You know where they are Lord, so keep them alive till help arrives.
bring hope for all who's lost their loved ones in this disaster and we all pray that future major earthquakes that will happen this year will be tampered by your grace.
was an awesome service, made me realise that God is mighty to save all that turn towards Him.
glad im a direct product of the Lord and so is pastor Lawrence.
couldn't possibly have been here today if not for the numerous times He stopped me without fail.
now i truly know He's done the same for many others and delivered them from the valley.
alllll right~ shall abandon plans to do csc hw for now. csc talk tomorrow morning ): urgh what about my sleep~
blessed holidays ^^
Saturday, March 12, 2011 @ 6:50 AM
end of the world?
shocked to hear about something this massive happening, but what's more an eye-opener is the fact that this large moon phenomena (??) is probably gonna cause even worse damage sometime around saturday next week.
pray for Japan, as well as for everything else that we cannot predict that may happen next saturday.
there's still many unsaved,
I know you won't be coming for us just yet, Lord.
and meanwhile as we look forward to seeing Your face,
we'll continue to get more of your beloveds to look towards You.
When all who were once blind to You can finally see,
this is when I know we'll all see You in Your fullest glory.
we all anticipate, but meanwhile, there's still a lot more to embrace, to welcome, to forgive.
I know we can move the world, so let's keep impacting :)
btw zinc! haha go listen (sacrifice by bob fitts) ^^
kbox with spongebob tmr~ :D
Thursday, March 10, 2011 @ 5:31 AM
phew its finally friday tomorrow.
and the end of term1.
and even before i get time to cultivate the elated and relaxed mood i should be getting into,
there's a fat foul pile of homework sitting there contemptuously in my dhs mail.
sigh and even when im typing this now, theres this nagging feeling that's going "HA you should be doing it now, or else you can forget about enjoying your hols".
which reminds me that there's a whole lot of nonsense to spoil my hols such as (starts with a D' ) go figure.
which then brings me to the point that has been loitering around in the corridors of my brain recently.
i always thought dance was defined purely by the movements, the music and the satisfaction derived from doing it, but i guess i'm wrong after all. of equal importance is the people who add a whole new dimension to what dance actually is and the experience you get from it.
and im glad to announce that so far, all i've met with are people who thwart the whole enjoyable experience. it's amazing how many times i can walk back home and come up with a long list of people i feel like giving a tight slap(or maybe more) to for the day. stop, for goodness sake, being so pretentious! :O dont give me eye smiles or scrunch your shoulders to act cute cos that is totally gross. be sincere enough and i wouldn't have been bothered about how annoying you look.
thank God 12's an awesome class, makes school survivable~
enough of that for now, and more of some things im looking forward to.
kbox this sun yeah spongebob? ^^
serving with faith kidz! wheeeeee :D
outcome for SKIP :/
being entertained by mr. vocals~
and some others im not..
-D'
-wtf im supposed to do about D' this sat? still in a dilemma, though its hardly a battle of conscience, the answer is obvious enough.
oh and spongebob, here's the reply to your question (yes good guess, haha.. but as i said, it's nothing much..)
put it at the last line just to see if you really read finish my boring posts.
and now i'll be anticipating your answer..
right, have an blessed friday guys :D
Saturday, March 5, 2011 @ 7:09 AM
it's funny how at times due to certain qualities, to quote what matt said, you can't help but stop and wonder, what if i fall in love with him?
it's an interesting game your mind plays with your heart and is even more entertaining that you're an onlooker.
another vacation tomorrow :) looking forward to His word.
show me Your ways, and let me see you manifest in my life,
it's gonna be a long week again and i know that all i'll ever need is You.
Friday, March 4, 2011 @ 10:48 AM
and its.. 15 minutes to 3am.
peaceful for now.
again, the conflicting emotions experienced today made me realise how annoying human's natural instincts are.
as much as we are to place our trust in the Lord for all things including results, human nature makes you unknowingly worry about it when in fact you already have everything.
human nature makes you want to prove yourself more worthy than others, when you in fact are already the child of the most high God.
human nature makes your adrenaline pump when you get your results back just cos you still have that tiny "what if" in your heart, when in fact He has promised all things good.
well the only thing that's keeping me grounded now is His promise that He will be the one doing, and I the one being, such that when success arises, men may not boast in his own works, but only in the Lord alone.
i think my heart found a way to take a vacation last night :)
it was an awesome experience. go watch theatre/ performances.
allow yourself to suspend your disbelief for once, and truly be immersed in that world where you are nothing but the onlooker, not involved in the ongoing affairs but yet equally engaged.
a minute to 3,
where would your heart be?
Wednesday, March 2, 2011 @ 6:02 AM
thank God it's the middle of the week already.
hanging on..
am annoyed at the poor lessons given for econs, look, dont just babble there, i have no idea what on earth is your main point.
if its not poor pronunciation, then its poor teaching. please do something substantial about it soon.
i hate having to waste my effort listening to you, not get anything at all, and waste time to read it back home again. since you are capable of such good notes, then why doesn't your speech reflect that?!
sigh. even weekends are no escape anymore
show me an alternative way out,
because we all know this routine holds no significant meaning
when what truly matters is how it all comes together to serve others in the future.