Monday, May 30, 2011 @ 11:28 PM
reviewing all your past stages, kinda wondered why no one ever appreciated you more.
but all that doesn't matter anymore, anyway.
to think that we were once standing at the same point;
now that you're gone, it feels almost like losing a brother.
though it hurts a lot to know you didn't manage to find a way to escape, i know you're now happier there than you would be if you were still here
행복해주세요..
Saturday, May 28, 2011 @ 9:03 AM
well well.. its the holidays but before i come to what i'm gonna do for the upcoming hols, loads of things have happened in the past few weeks..
firstly, 5 tests this week. nearly killed me, no joke. can't remember one night that i slept earlier than 1. in the end, had no choice but to sacrifice studying for one. simply no time. sorry math, think i just flunked you.
secondly, 3 consecutive days where 3 teachers announced their leave. not that we have a very strong teaching group to start with. now all the better ones are gone, leaving the weak ones to struggle. how displeasing. i wonder what'll happen to our reputation.
but anyhow, change is inevitable, just like how man's love for God is seldom consistent. but God's love for man is never-changing and despite all changes that happen with time, i'm glad God's there all the way. It's like He's a common platform and with Him around, you know that in the end there'll still be reunion.
thirdly, i see you've backed down. and for once, there's more relief than regret. glad that i never agreed, cos it'd definitely have been for the wrong reasons.
with all the recent suicides of celebrities and the criticisms popping up, kinda reminds me about how i used to do the same until the whole episode changed my mind. and i've gotta say i understand why they did it, and that it actually isn't as wrong as you think it is..
great time for reunion in fact, with relatives today @ goodwood park. it's been quite a while since we got together and it's timely that we did at the start of my holidays.
unfortunately i sound like a horse now. not too happy about that at all.
finally had the time to watch reruns of variety shows, catch up on practice vids and everything.
sigh eye candy :D
kiseobbie, daniel, wyoung <3
kiseobbie, daniel, wyoung <3
glad gorgor's catching up too.
Thursday, May 19, 2011 @ 9:44 AM
this has been bugging me recently, especially after all that's happened.
the right one will come along someday.
the one who knows even when you don't speak, who hears everything you're unable to say, who'll offer comfort hugs for every storm.
yet no matter how I envision it to be, I don't see you in my future.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011 @ 9:43 AM
reading an amazing book's just like life, a journey through a maze blindfolded.
never knowing the next step, the next turn. it's an arduous yet fulfilling journey, complete with ups and downs.
then just as abruptly as it started, it comes to an end and the blindfold is yanked unceremoniously from your eyes.
stuck in an unfamiliar place, you try looking behind you hoping to find the way back. Yet, what greets you is a whole lot of dead ends and you realise that after travelling for so long, going back to the start isn't an option.
So you look ahead, hoping to find the way forward. Yet, only darkness and uncertainty hoover in the midst. Staying at the same spot, you envision the future, and reminisce about the past. Funny thing is, though possible to see both scenarios work out so perfectly in your mind, you have no idea how you're going to get from where you are now, to where you imagine yourself to be. Stuck at the same spot, you continue walking in circles, trying to convince yourself that it's going to get you somewhere, someday. Yet, when it comes to a point where reality sticks and refuses to be shaken off, like a bad nightmare, when there seems to be no other way, maybe that really is the best option. Who are you to say otherwise? no one has all the right answers. How're you to understand, especially if you've never been through it yourself?
and so how could i possibly accept someone who doesn't?
don't you see, that even if you gave up everything you had, it still wouldn't contain what I've been looking for all this while.
that sometimes, everything isn't quite enough.
Sunday, May 8, 2011 @ 3:51 AM
end of the excitement, though another new beginning now.
as relieved as i am about the results, it is coupled with much annoyance.
and im glad to see that quite a few feel the same.
perhaps there's some ray of hope for our generation in the future..
apart from that shit,
ministry+service was awesome.
children were so lovable during ministry. really glad to be able to minister to them (:
and for once i found active children so cute.
service with yaya+ lunch <3
heh blessed start to the week with God's favour overflowing~
can't wait to see what lies ahead.
Friday, May 6, 2011 @ 7:15 AM
addicted to updating. at least for these 2 days.
polling day tomorrow. who will you choose, Singapore?
remember that you're not only voting for yourselves, but also those who aren't able to.
it isn't just about your future, but also everyone else's.
and i have to say i hate to see the way things are going right now.
it scares me to see that people seem to have forgotten.
with such a myopic view on something so broad.
who says above 21 = responsible, rationale, mature?
to me, it's already been proven otherwise.
Thursday, May 5, 2011 @ 9:19 AM
就算说过不会再对那样的关系付出真感情，有时还是难免会忘了控制，忘了停止。
但其实说穿了，还是有太多无法捉摸的，太少的宽容，到最后还是说不出的，“就算你不了解也无所谓。”
找寻的是一个能够在黑暗中仍然能够与你注视着同样的目标，
在无语时仍然能够听到你的心声，你的呐喊，
外表上再怎么外向，却在最后发现是个与你一样内向的人，
一个了解就算有再多理由开心却有时还是难免会倾向于黑暗的人。
就当作是我太挑剔了吧，
还是放手吧。
@ 6:39 AM
loooong time since i last updated.
sigh. this week was.. short but eventful?
tuesday was.. long and dreary.
wednesday was.. eventful.
at the end of everything, i was on one hand furious, and on the other, sad. it's too simple a word to truly encapsulate what we all felt after seeing all that yesterday.
2 different households, 2 different stories.
yet both reminding me of people i know.
1 that doesn't try hard enough, the other that only starts trying when it's almost already too late.
1 that refuses to admit mistakes committed, the other realizing only now.
1 that has so much to say, yet so little will. the other with so little left to say, simply because reality has come to stay.
as much as we all want to help you, please show us you're willing to help yourself first.
please show us you want to see that change as much as we want to help you make that change.
we're not asking you to do what you can't. but at least show us you are trying.
cos when we know we're not the only ones that care, it makes everything worthwhile.
can't help wondering if you regret the things you did some point in your life. don't we all?
but for 30 years. it should have been long enough for you to at least look back once.
were you unable to see what laid ahead? or were you simply too lost to care?
now, standing at what seems like the final stretch of your race of life,
we all wonder if you did foresee this. the pain, the burden, the lost.
now, despite all previous pleasure, are you able to still stand firm saying you've never regretted and never will?
will you still able to face your family during your last moments, saying "I'm sorry I won't be there anymore to catch you even if you fall?"
1 an elderly, another a smoker.
1 who hasn't cleaned her house for at least the past 3 years, the other who hasn't stopped smoking in 30 years.
1 that can, but doesn't bother, the other who can't do anything even if he wanted to.
1 with poor sanitation and housing conditions that would take forever to save, the other with 3rd stage lung cancer that even with all the time in the world, would not be easy to save.