Thursday, May 5, 2011 @ 6:39 AM
loooong time since i last updated.
sigh. this week was.. short but eventful?
tuesday was.. long and dreary.
wednesday was.. eventful.
at the end of everything, i was on one hand furious, and on the other, sad. it's too simple a word to truly encapsulate what we all felt after seeing all that yesterday.
2 different households, 2 different stories.
yet both reminding me of people i know.
1 that doesn't try hard enough, the other that only starts trying when it's almost already too late.
1 that refuses to admit mistakes committed, the other realizing only now.
1 that has so much to say, yet so little will. the other with so little left to say, simply because reality has come to stay.
as much as we all want to help you, please show us you're willing to help yourself first.
please show us you want to see that change as much as we want to help you make that change.
we're not asking you to do what you can't. but at least show us you are trying.
cos when we know we're not the only ones that care, it makes everything worthwhile.
can't help wondering if you regret the things you did some point in your life. don't we all?
but for 30 years. it should have been long enough for you to at least look back once.
were you unable to see what laid ahead? or were you simply too lost to care?
now, standing at what seems like the final stretch of your race of life,
we all wonder if you did foresee this. the pain, the burden, the lost.
now, despite all previous pleasure, are you able to still stand firm saying you've never regretted and never will?
will you still able to face your family during your last moments, saying "I'm sorry I won't be there anymore to catch you even if you fall?"
1 an elderly, another a smoker.
1 who hasn't cleaned her house for at least the past 3 years, the other who hasn't stopped smoking in 30 years.
1 that can, but doesn't bother, the other who can't do anything even if he wanted to.
1 with poor sanitation and housing conditions that would take forever to save, the other with 3rd stage lung cancer that even with all the time in the world, would not be easy to save.