Tuesday, May 25, 2010 @ 7:00 AM
haha I thought I never liked khun. well well. I guess I love him as much as the other guys too.
happy shineeversary ^^ 2nd on the list currently :D
get well soon yonghwa!
let's pray for hangeng too.
portfolio&SGC due on thursday..
miss yeo! how could you inform us so late :/
iglocal presentation tomorrow. let's see how well last minute preparations can turn out to be. I'm really interested to know. especially when we're gonna be briefed by such a professional person-in-charge.
CIP on thursday :D
haha as usual, kinda excited despite doing 3 days of CIP just last week.
thanks for helping me find a way out again.
I promise I'll always look to the supply, and not the demand.
cos I know you're an overpayment for every demand, reasonable or not.
I'll let you do the work from now on. After all, the earth doesn't spin because of my own efforts.
and please let matt hear that too, jesus. cos I know then that he'll be truly happy.
Friday, May 21, 2010 @ 6:59 AM
don't you ever realise that as much as you try to accept everyone as they are, there are always a few that are just don't fit.
it's been an awesome week and yeah, looking forward to next week.
learnt so much more about the school this week, the different rooms that we never did get to explore, plus a little glimpse into the out-of-bounds staff room.
found some really amazing songs again :)
it's always music that never fails to surprise me and i'm really thankful for its existence.
:D
update soon~
kiseob = cuteness that can kill.
thank god youngie's voice is back ((:
Thursday, May 20, 2010 @ 7:01 AM
going through the #1345321st crisis of today.
isn't it funny that projects always go so smoothly until the end when everything starts cropping up.
all printers of this world are probably evil.
they always die on their owners at the most crucial times.
fortunately, little hiccups on my printer for today.
(thank you for being such a nice printer today, canon.)
well.. cooking class was fun enough :)
heh. has inspired me to, for the first few times in my life, fry something over oil -.-
cip at lions' tomorrow (:
hope it'll go fine.
update soon..
오빠 사랑해~
Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 1:23 AM
while others are suffering at obs..
we are,
HAVING A WHALE OF A TIME :DDD
haha these few days so far have been awesome.
new friends, new groups, new places and new activities!
CIP at lion's home on the first two days were.. pretty good (:
didn't expect the elderly to have the same type of response as those at all saints' home though ):
it's just maddening how kids can just throw their parents into those kind of homes and leave them to... idk.
some are perfectly young and fine. I can understand if they have medical conditions and have difficulty taking care of themselves due to dementia or something, but some are still really active in the head though they may not be mobile but they know what's going on and it's just cruel to dump them in a home. not that i'm implying that if they have dementia, it's fine to dump them in a home.
well. the activities didn't really suit them well but still it was a good experience.
today was a field trip to horticulture park :D
haha had lots of fun running around snapping lots of pretty flowers with isabellyyy.
mm btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLY! treeesh loveeeessss you
hort park's really pretty. definitely will revisit some day when i get the chance :)
we should have 10 times as much of such field trips (:
tomorrow's activity?
cooking thunder tea rice with mr. kiw ^^
heard it's good sooo yup anticipating much though i can't cook to save my life.
this will probably be the one and only home econs lesson i'll have my whole life :D
friday!
our planned activity + mr kiw's group i think :/
yup :D
next week?
electives week!
can't wait to watch local films :D
#coMeBLAQ & #happyBAEday :D
trenddd people~
Friday, May 14, 2010 @ 8:53 AM
well today kinda marks the end of the first semester and as much as im looking forward to the holidays, i've realized that i ought to be doing so much more studying during that period. This ptm probably has allowed me to find not exactly motivation, but rather a reason to try even harder. After much thinking I've made up my mind about the subject combination too. Although it'll probably kill me to give up on the healthcare sector but the number of things i'll have to sacrifice, the effort, energy and time.. I'm not sure if i can still continue such a study routine for several years. well, it's probably just me.
ptm today went well :D glad we got more feedback forms back this year and that we managed to meet all the teachers we wanted to.
and its heartening to find out that there are friends that I can still speak to about almost everything and it turns out to be the people that i least expect. i guess people can change to become better and just like how everyone's improving day by day, to become a little smarter and stronger each day is a small expectation i have for myself.
Thursday, May 13, 2010 @ 12:58 AM
surprisingly, i got the work attachment for KK. I didn't really expect that. well i guess they look at how well you write your reflections. sigh. this is making me waver again.i'd love to be able to heal the sick and to do such an admirable job but i know i don't have what it takes to do exceedingly well in sciences and compete with the rest of the elite schools for med school. i guess sometimes, having just the heart to want to do something alone, isn't enough. i can tell you that writing a 1000 word essay is never as difficult as trying to understand a topic of chemistry.
it's been a tiring week and for now, i guess i can say that it's almost over. there's ptm tomorrow and i wonder if it's miss yeo/miss pear that im helping. fortunately, today's been rather peaceful, especially in the morning. hardly heard anyone talking probably cos everyone's equally tired and that's good. hardly in the mood to maintain a proper conversation these days.
well perhaps ptm and saturday's cip shopping will lift my mood a little.
ought to be doing something about chemistry now..
Wednesday, May 12, 2010 @ 8:30 AM
definitely not feeling anywhere near "elated" for today.
in fact it's quite the opposite.
9hours straight of school and im tired.
i don't even have the motivation to pick up the pen and start writing some sensible for tomorrow's geog test.
just wanna say,
hey matt, yeah it's difficult to cope and i really don't like to see you sad and all
so even if it means sacrificing some things to make life better
you'll get even more opportunities in the future.
and one more thing.
although it probably isn't all the glitz and glamour we see,
i'd still give anything just to give the whole process a shot.
even if it means i'll end up sacrificing or quitting some parts in the end,
but hey, as they always say, it's better to have tried and failed, then to never have tried at all.
you're a really blessed guy for being able to experience so many things in the first quarter of your life.
i'll never give up
just like how your flame of passion never dies
mine is just as defiant.
even though i may not be able to progress much further at the moment,
but once i get the chance and the freedom to do so
i'll never let it go.
currently the only reason that keeps me going is probably my parents and my ego.
they're the only reason why i don't just drop everything, and pursue my interests.
and they're the only people who never fail to make me think twice before doing lots of _______ things.
my ego is another major factor.
rather than saying im afraid of letting my parents down, i should also admit that i let myself down really easily too.
i know i have. this term and last year, and every bad grade i get.
although this term's starting to look better, but i know i've still let down myself greatly, in so many areas. as much as i don't want to ever regret and just work hard all the way, i know it's never possible with myself. firstly because i never believed in forcing myself to try to do well in something that simply isn't my forte. besides hard work, everything needs a small dose of talent. and trust me, without that small dose, everything becomes tiring and frustrating.
yes, there isn't a choice now.
but just give me sometime to recuperate cos i really need that time alone.
i promise i'll come back even stronger, and hopefully smarter.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 @ 7:42 AM
100 most influential people on time magazine.
i believe some blind souls out there probably voted the wrong person by mistake.
to admire someone for trying their best to ignite a bra?
what's the world coming to.
one full page of wrong idolization, wrong praises and simply, warped thinking.
must be the great Americanization at work again.
bad influence? absolutely. even mum who likes english songs agrees (:
at least hanhan's there :D
(Y)
record time of non-stop talking for nearly 2hours or so today.
man i don't feel like talking anymore D:
thank god i'm not going level camp next week.
oh yeah. gpa's kinda out already.
just to say im surprised at what i got and thank you jesus, i love you ^^
couldn't have been possible without you.
& yes matt, i won't crash into the wall again anymore, and nor will you.
i'll soar on jesus wings instead, over the wall, and i know you'll have a breakthrough too.
Monday, May 10, 2010 @ 8:08 AM
yeah it's been a while since i updated.
after reading matt's post, everything's flooding back again. All the ups and downs, the split seconds that i've thought of giving up, of turning to _____, of all the times when no matter how far you tried to stretch your neck, strain your eyes, you would never be able to see the end.
Of all the times no one could understand what you truly want to pursue
of all the times no one would be willing to support you despite knowing that you'd die just to be able to achieve your goal.
and there's so much more.
but i think i've been harping on a lot of that draggy stuff recently.. so.
and i've recently realized that though i've got friends and a considerable amount (maybe not to those who love to hang out in mega groups and laugh their asses off in public places thinking its hell cool when they look like a bunch of fools who don't know better), there are only one or two that i'm really close to and yet they still aren't the type of people my heart is looking for.
definitely, they're great friends and we do so many activities together, but (perhaps i'll have to blame it on technology) there isn't one friend that i feel would be willing to spend time, be it on the phone or in person, to listen to each other speak and confess about their worries, what they truly want for themselves, and everything else that's close to one's heart. It's not so much of a counselling session i wish for, but rather just a sharing session where you come to understand that your best friend is facing the same problems as you are. and that to me is a great encouragement because i know that no matter what happens, there'll be that one friend that will always understand, that one friend that is mature enough.
perhaps, among my group of great friends, there are one or two who look like they'd be willing to do so.
but it's a dry topic after all and most people aren't interested in long conversations without much laughter.
however i still feel that laughing, & trying to make people laugh, gets really tiring after a while.
jokes don't come that instantaneously to me and it gets tiring to upkeep the humor after 10 mins or so.
(yes, maybe im a boring person), but dry conversations still suit me much better.
hopefully, one day, i'll find that person i've always been seeking.
or maybe, it'll be someone among my group of friends.
you never know.
yup, seek and you shall find (in the near future?)
Thursday, May 6, 2010 @ 6:55 AM
这几天简直是热到。。没话说。
有时想不如直接剪掉头发当尼姑算了。
yet again. so much to say, so much going through my mind now but somehow in the process of thinking how to spill it out, it gets mixed up and lost in all the words.
yeah it's probably true. words really can't express everything.
everything's kinda falling into place now.
not exactly the way i wish it will one day, but rather, just back to normal.
and that's good perhaps.
will probably maintain status quo for another 3 weeks before it all goes back to being just, the same old thing again.
and maybe for once i'll willingly let my heart rule over my brain.
Sunday, May 2, 2010 @ 10:33 PM
晨曦终于回来啦 :)
太棒了~
urgh it's start of school tomorrow.
-.-
lots of homework to hand in and bio pop quiz.
:O oops i just remembered about cca.
SARAH where are we eating tomorrow!
macs or kfcccc huh
lets not be healthy this week :D
:O okay there's still geog project.
better get going~