Saturday, April 24, 2010 @ 7:37 AM
so i had a day of doing absolutely nothing today.
thought that would make me really happy+ 9 hours of sleep for once.
but.. somehow it just didn't feel right.
everytime i take a break now, not doing anything proper, i'll always be on tenterhooks.
like i've just grown a parasite inside me that nags at me everytime i slack.
and it really just leaves me helpless.
the truth is.. well there are some things to do. like jianbao. but its due next friday.
and every other test has been postponed already..
i can study for them, but is it so wrong to just stop for a while?
please. just a while. yes im guilty of slacking but just this once?
when everything gets hard to control, hard to let go, hard to keep moving on
it's always when everything breaks down.
and it feels like the only way to make everything whole again is to escape.
so many places i'd love to go.
maybe, one day when everything really comes to a total stop cos i cant find the motivation or the energy to continue with this path in life, and when nothing else really matters anymore,
you'll find me at every one of those places living life just like how i wish so badly i could now.
sometimes i wonder, how can anyone's tears ever dry up beacause they get so tired of crying, when i simply can't make them stop.